I live in a snow globe kind of world. The wind doesn’t blow and the rain doesn’t fall. Instead, the earth shakes and everything flips upside-down, right-side up, then upside-down again. The torrential swirls that are created sends shockwaves throughout my world and threatens to topple anything that isn’t nailed down. Watching the flakes of snow slowly settle across the trees is the only moment of calm I have. It is such a welcomed peace and a time I use to catch my breath before the shaking starts yet again.
I’ve tried to learn to surf through the shakes and swirls. Some days I do pretty good at it. Other times I wipe out at the first sign of a wave heading my way. Yesterday, I think I wiped out before the wave even started. I hate those kinds of days. Days where the tears flow more freely than smiles.
We all have days like that. I probably cried a bucket of tears, maybe even a bathtub full…I wasn’t measuring, but it was a lot. Being overwhelmed by life happens to us all. MS has the ability to do it quickly too. I can get overwhelmed just stepping out of bed in the morning. Now that takes skill!
I couldn’t tell you why I was crying yesterday. I still don’t know why. It’s as if every fiber and cell in my body was screaming at me and the only way to release the pressure was through tears.
I hate days like that. But they happen even to the best of us. We can’t blame everything on MS, but for many of us our emotions are drastically affected by the imbalance in our brain and we can’t control the tears, the laughter, or the shifts in our emotions. That’s hard to get used to.
But today…today is a new day. There have been no upside-down flips as of yet. For that I’m thankful. My suggestion, go with the flow. Ride out the swirls and waves…and hang on. Some days can be really crazy, but you always make it. You always get through the upside-down, right-side up moments.
Now, will someone see if they can superglue, nail or cement our snow globe to the table? No more flips today…please!