Some things just don’t go together, like peanut butter and mustard or swimming and lightning. Or how about music and ear plugs or driving and texting. Something else that doesn’t go together is Multiple Sclerosis and me. We are just not a good fit, the two of us. It’s a constant battle of what I want to do and what MS will allow me to do.
I still find myself over doing things and pushing myself beyond what I should be doing. And every time I feel the effects of it later. You would think by now I would know not to push so hard, but I seem to do it any way. Sometimes it’s because I just want to fit in with everyone else. Other times it’s because I still think I’m invincible. And then sometimes it’s because things just need to get done and I’m the only one to do them.
It’s important to know your limits and take time for yourself. To treat your body with care. Our bodies need more care than most and we have to be sure to not over do it. We all get busy. We all push too hard. We all forget at times just how much our body has changed because of MS. But we all need a break…a vacation from MS. Is that even possible? Taking a vacation from a disease that just won’t go away?
Maybe I can’t rid my day of MS, but I can purposely give myself a break and do something just for me. I’m going to pamper myself and not lift a finger. No cleaning up messes. No work whatsoever. Just me time and coffee. Even if it only lasts for 30 minutes, I’m going to do it. Even if that means locking myself in the bathroom or hiding out in the closet…I’m choosing to step away from the chaos and rest. I’m choosing myself over MS today.