I woke up this morning to my teeth chattering. It’s grown cold and I’m not a fan. The cold tends to stiffen my muscles and causes me to have to work extra hard just to move. The heat isn’t my friend either. Oh, to live in a place where the weather is perfect—not too hot and not too cold—would be amazing. I don’t think that place exists, but it’s great to dream anyway.
There’s nothing worse than feeling out of control. The temperature tends to do that to me. It comes along and throws a wrench into my plans and messes things up. Everything I do tends to take more effort and a whole lot more energy. I get exhausted just imagining my day and all the things needing to get done…and I haven’t even gotten out of bed yet.
Many times, if you’re anything like me, you push yourself hard anyway…sometimes too hard. All that energy you use making your muscles function and your body move leaves you worn out. You want desperately to be able to do the things needed for the day, but your body just won’t let you. You find yourself weaker in your efforts to make yourself strong. Then discouragement comes knocking at your door along with some of its friends…weariness, frustration, defeat and disappointment.
At those times, it’s important to take a break. My kind of break may be different from yours, but anything that puts life back into perspective helps. It may be taking time to pamper yourself by getting your nails done or going to a local miniature golfing spot to ride the bumper cars. It could be finding a secluded spot away from the world to shed a few tears and pray in private or even something as simple as having a slice of chocolate pie…anything that helps to calm your heart and put peace back into your day.
Taking a break doesn’t mean you quit on life or on your plans, it doesn’t mean life will change and all of a sudden you will have this amazing boost of energy and your nerves will work properly again, it just means you put things on hold for a bit in order to take care of yourself.
You deserve that. You deserve some “me” time. Don’t let MS cause you to give up and stop believing in who you are. You matter more than you realize.