When life doesn’t make sense

I looked up the word discourage in the dictionary this morning. I know that may sound silly, but I wanted to know exactly what it meant. My brain doesn’t let me remember things like that any more.

According to Webster’s Dictionary discourage means to deprive of courage, hope, or confidence.

Wow…lately I guess you could say I have been deprived of courage, hope and confidence. Maybe you have too. It’s hard trudging through the day when I feel like I’m dragging the weight of all my emotions and troubles along the journey with me. Emotions can get messy and heavy. I don’t know about you, but I definitely don’t need any more messiness in my life let alone extra weights to add to my load.

So many times life just doesn’t make sense…MS doesn’t make sense. We try to fit everything that is happening around us into a neat little package and tie it up with a pretty little bow, but it just never seems to quite fit as we had hoped. Life begins spilling out around us and discouragement has this wonderful ability to sneak in to join the party.

When I get discouraged and start to feel as if I’m falling apart, I remind myself of why I have stuck it out this far in the first place. Yes, the road is hard. Yes, I’m dodging bullets at every turn. Yes, I have been hit and wounded by a few. Yes, I’m tired, worn out and weary. But I’m more than those things…and so are you.

We are warriors fighting in a battle that many will never see. Our battle is real, it’s personal, and it’s ongoing. But just because each day we wake up in the trenches, doesn’t mean we have to sit down and never move forward. You have to keep going even if all you can do is pull the weight of your body through the mud on your elbows.

Don’t let the struggle you are facing keep you from being the amazing person that you are. Fight with your head held high, full of courage, hope and confidence. Don’t let discouragement set up camp along the way.

Be encouraged by looking back at how far you have already come. Yes, there’s a long road ahead, but don’t look at how long it is. Focus just on today and the journey in front of you right now. You will conquer it one pebble at at time.

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About the Author
Penelope Conway

Penelope Conway
Penelope started Positive Living with MS as a way to help others with MS stay positive in the midst of a terrible disease. She believes that staying positive and holding onto hope is the key to waking up each morning with the strength to get through the day. Multiple Sclerosis may never go away, but neither will her determination and her drive to help others through the journey.

9 replies
  1. Rodger Ashton-Smith
    Rodger Ashton-Smith says:

    Hi Penelope thanks for your encouragement it has been good to know you’re not alone. I am fortunate to have a strange but loving family around here. I don’t know what I would really do without them.

  2. Stephanie Beck
    Stephanie Beck says:

    I’m in the midst of one of the worse relapses that I’ve ever experienced in my 27 years of battling MS. I’ve always said I didn’t want to lose my sight or my mental faculties and with this relapse I’ve lost most of my sight in my right eye and I sound like a drunk when I have a conversation. I can’t remember dates, names and events. I’m really struggling right now. Your blog today really hit home to me. It reminded me that I have to conquer this relapse “one pebble at a time “. Thank you so much for your inspirational words everyday.

  3. Leah
    Leah says:

    Rough getting out of bed this morning…mentally and physically, but will follow your lead on getting through today and focus on tomorrow when it comes. Thanks for the encouragement.:-)

  4. Kristin Stetz
    Kristin Stetz says:

    I really needed this today. I woke up with every bone in my body aching. Already missed my morning classes, so just about to talk myself into skipping the afternoon ones as well. Then I read your post. I’m doing to get up, dust myself off, and pull through this day. Thank you

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