Life wasn’t suppose to turn out this way. All those “Once upon a time” stories I was told as a kid had me thinking I would be riding off with a handsome young prince into a life of perfection. Multiple Sclerosis wasn’t even mentioned as a part of the story. It didn’t even exist in the land of pretend.
But as I grew up, I came to realize that a perfect life didn’t really exist. Life is not filled with forest animals helping around the house. It’s not covered in fairy dust, taken care of by Oompa Loompa’s or protected by flying dogs.
The reality of life is not always easy to face because it is filled with pain, heartbreak, sickness and hardships. Yes, joyous times take place which far outweigh the sad times that happen. Laughter, smiles, giggles and hugs are the things I long for each day. They are the things that truly matter. But even with all the warm fuzzies and happy moments, I still have times when I look back and the thought crosses my mind, “What did I do wrong to be living a life with Multiple Sclerosis?”
When thoughts like that take place, I remind myself that there is nothing I could have done or not done to have kept MS from happening in my life. I didn’t cause it by something I did wrong in my past or because I ate something I shouldn’t have eaten. It didn’t happen because I wasn’t good enough or because I don’t have enough faith or because I deserve it. MS simply is. It’s a part of this messed up world we live in and doesn’t need a “why” to exist.
Don’t spend your days trying to figure out why you have MS. The why’s are not what’s important. What’s important is how you are living today. Today is what matters. Today is where you are…it’s where you live. You don’t live in the land of “Once upon a time.”
Make today a glorious day. Do something you love. Create some beautiful memories that bring smiles to your face and warmth to your heart. Maybe eat a chocolate, have lunch with a friend, watch a funny movie, or take a long shower where no one can bother you. Weed out the things in life that don’t really matter. Sometimes that means people, not just unnecessary commitments. Lighten your load and choose to live today on purpose.
Then when you lay your head down on your pillow tonight, end the day with this thought…”I lived today!”