Have you ever woken up in the morning and from the moment you opened your eyes, you knew your day wasn’t starting off so well? Yeah, that was my day yesterday. I slept through the buzzing of my alarm clock so I was in a rush from the very beginning. Everytime that happens, my head ends up in a daze and I feel like I’m walking through syrup.
I made my way to the bathroom and everything was going fine until I realized I forgot to get a towel out of the cabinet before stepping into the shower. I hate when I do that. I’m not a fan of being hit with blasts of cold air as I step out of the shower that early in the morning before I’ve even had my coffee.
Speaking of coffee, by the time I made it to the kitchen to make some, I was already exhausted and ready for a nap even after being thoroughly awakened by freezing morning air…and I hadn’t even done anything yet. I pulled yesterday’s filter out of the coffee maker to throw it away and wouldn’t you know it, I missed the trash can spilling wet, soggy coffee grounds all over the kitchen floor. My day was definitely starting out to be a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day.
I got everything cleaned up, made my coffee, was enjoying a moment of quiet when I suddenly realized the drain on my urine bag (I have a suprapubic catheter due to a nonfunctioning bladder) was open and leaking urine all over me. I cut my coffee moment short and got back into the shower to clean myself up. At least this time I was sure to have a towel ready for me when I was done.
Finally everything seemed to be calming down. I finished getting myself ready for the day, took care of a few things around the house then left to run a few errands. As I was driving down the road in my van, I realized the air conditioner wasn’t blowing cold air. It’s just now starting to get warm enough to need the air on and mine wasn’t working. Oh, great!
When I got home, I scheduled an appointment with the mechanic to take it in for diagnostics and repair. I then decided I was done for the day. I curled up on the couch with my favorite fuzzy blanket and took a nap…a long, long nap.
I don’t like days filled with constant surprises and uncertainties. But, you know, living with Multiple Sclerosis is going to have its share of unpredictability. One day, things could be great. The next, it could turn out to be a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day. And sometimes it doesn’t even happen by days but rather from one minute to the next. You just never know what you are going to get with a life of MS.
I know it’s not easy, but you have to learn to expect the unexpected and be willing to go with the flow. Bad things are bound to happen, and bad days will come, but so will the good days. We just don’t seem to remember the good days like we remember the bad ones.
Try to enjoy each good moment you have while you can. And when those terrible, horrible, no good, very bad days happen…take some advice from Alexander. Everybody has bad days, no matter where they live, but you will get through them. Tears won’t last, all your crazy mixed-up emotions won’t last, and even your bad days won’t last. You never know what tomorrow may bring. It just might be something amazing and even be a good day.