So many times we go through life struggling with the feeling that we are all alone in the heartache and pain we are facing. Even someone surrounded by a sea of people can feel completely alone and broken. That seems impossible, but it happens. I know because I’ve felt that way myself more times than I can count.
Feeling emotionally spent, isolated and completely useless is one of the worst things a person can face in life. At different stages of progression with MS, it’s easy to find yourself in some of those lonely and broken places. Those places cause a type of emotional stress that becomes overwhelming, and sometimes happen simply because you want those you love the most to not have to see you struggle or be hurt by the pain you yourself are experiencing.
Because we are the ones dealing with the emotional pain of living with a chronic illness, we feel it deep…really deep. We know the inner struggle, the burden, and the pain that MS causes. It can sometimes become too much for our own hearts to bear.
And because we know that pain oh so well, we don’t want others to have to go through the suffering along with us. Not because we are selfish, but because we want to spare them from being hurt. We would rather we were the only ones having to feel the things we feel, think the things we think, and to go through the things we go through.
But in our desire for others to not be hurt…we end up hurting them. It’s not intentional. It’s not anything we want to happen, but it happens. It’s a domino effect that can’t be stopped unless we change the dominos and lay out a different path for them to follow.
I never thought I would quote Marilyn Monroe, but she once said, “Good things fall apart so better things can fall into place.” You are going to have times when you feel as if your world is falling apart and that no one understands you. When that happens, it’s important to allow people into your life to help you so you don’t have to go through it all by yourself. Even the bravest of the brave, the strongest of the strong, the mightiest of the mighty need help.
Life can change minute by minute which means that sadness can happen, but so can happiness. Happiness can happen at any given moment. Appreciate the things you have right now. Realize that you are an amazing person (even when you don’t feel like it). Be grateful, cry if you have too, smile when you can, and most importantly, let people in to your crazy broken world to help.
Your happiness and quality of life depend upon it.