Fight on mighty warrior

I have been waking up lately to some of the most terrible, horrific, pounding headaches of my life. It feels like someone is playing an entire basketball game in my head complete with extra trick shots, buzzers and a loud screaming crowd in the stands, only I’m the one that’s doing all the screaming.

Ugh!

I become completely useless trying to function when every movement hurts and when light only makes everything worse. Can the sun delay coming up for a few more hours? Please?!

It’s terrible waking up to pain especially when it’s something you can’t do anything about. Add to that all the other unexpected surprises that Multiple Sclerosis throws at you and you end up feeling like you’re trapped in a never ending nightmare. I think I even saw Freddy Krueger hiding somewhere in the shadows.

And people wonder why so many of us are anti-social. Well, we aren’t anti-social. We are just pro-survival. We do everything we can do, everyday, just to take part in this life we have been given with some semblance of normality. Our fight began the day we were diagnosed and it’s never stopped just because we went to bed and woke up to a new day.

Each day is a gift and something we are grateful to have been given, but sometimes even gifts need to be returned or exchanged for something better. Today, I would like to exchange my day for a time on the beach away from from heat sensitivity, pain, dizziness, fatigue, weakness, muscle spasms and tremors.

We didn’t ask for MS…none of us did. We didn’t cause it and we surely don’t deserve it. But since it’s here we have to make do with what we’ve got. If all you can do today is get out of bed and shower, then by all means, get out of bed and shower. If you can go to work, then do it. If you can fold some laundry in between naps, do it.

Do whatever you can, while you can. Today belongs to you. No pity parties. No complaining. Just breathe and be. That’s what I’m going to be doing. I am pushing through the struggle at each moment and with each breath I’m making it.

None of us asked for this fight, but we aren’t quitters either, so we fight on. Today, take a deep breath and go forth. Slay the dragons and imprison the monsters. Hold your head high because you are a valiant warrior.

Your armor might show signs of wear and carry the damage and dings to prove it, but that doesn’t make you a less-than warrior. That makes you one of the mighty. Fight on mighty warrior. Fight on!

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About the Author
About the Author
Penelope Conway

Penelope Conway
Penelope started Positive Living with MS as a way to help others with MS stay positive in the midst of a terrible disease. She believes that staying positive and holding onto hope is the key to waking up each morning with the strength to get through the day. Multiple Sclerosis may never go away, but neither will her determination and her drive to help others through the journey.

9 replies
  1. Rodger Ashton-Smith
    Rodger Ashton-Smith says:

    Iknow headaches are hard to ignore.Janice gets migraines sometimes ant hat’s hard for us to deal with But thankfully I have ha only a handful of headaches in my life. This was quite o when I use to drink failly heverly in my earlier years and had no problems like that. But few others of course.
    It’s a bit like that now but I’m not drunk or paye for this MS but it’s charging my like a bull.
    However I sill can chop up wood as I did this morning as we are getting some more today. It can be tyring but I am pacing myself more so it goes a bit easier for mr.

  2. Meeya
    Meeya says:

    Sorry to hear about this additional torment… but good to see how this just makes you more determined to go on fighting!
    This too shall pass – and my dad never forgets to remind me of how wonderful the moment is when the pain eases… 😉
    Big hugs!!!

  3. Nancy
    Nancy says:

    What’s with the headaches? I have been blessed with them too the past few days, my head feels like it’s in a vise-grip and is pounding. It is certainly not easy, is it. But I will warrior on with you, Penelope. I think that if I buy that “MS gets on my nerves” t shirt I’ll feel better, right?! 🙂

  4. Robert J Holmes says:

    Will fight on will not give in that is why we are warriors like some people call it something different but they fight on in a different way and that is what we have to do ms dose suck but we live with it

  5. Leslie Beaver says:

    Have honestly never considered myself a warrior. Yes I have ms. And yes it has forced changes upon me. And yes I am and will do all that I can to maintain my quality of life and that of my loved ones. But does that make me a warrior? Not sure. I think of it more like athletic contests I participated in as a young man. Win some, lose some. Though it was of course my choice to participate in those contests. Not so with my ms. But I take the same general approach to this contest.

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