My plans today…nothing! Absolutely nothing. I am going to rest, start a jigsaw puzzle, work on the computer a bit, order a pizza for dinner, and sleep as much as I can. So I guess my do-nothing day is actually quite full.
Today doesn’t need to give me warm fuzzies and be pain free to be enjoyable; although those would be nice to have. No, it just needs to be a day where I focus of the good things in life even if the only good thing I can think of is the fact that I’m alive. When you have your day in focus, it doesn’t matter if you have Multiple Sclerosis or a splinter in your finger, you are going to have a good day.
Why is that? How can someone be dealing with constant pain, unbearable fatigue, continual falls, being misunderstood, overlooked and under appreciated, have a good day?
Think about it. I could choose to focus on the fact that MS is kicking my butt this week, that I burned my toast this morning and my coffee burned my tongue—I could allow those things to dictate how the rest of my day will be—or I could decide that even though I’m hurting, I’m going to find something good about the day and enjoy it.
With a little bit of imagination you can turn laundry time into an adventure, cook like you’re Julia Child’s protege even though all you’re making is macaroni and cheese, and tackle the work pilling up on your desk one stack at a time.
Your world won’t collapse because you didn’t finish something. You are only one person and have a limited number of hours in a day to complete everything you want done. Do what you can today and leave the rest for another day.
Sometimes the choices of what needs to get done are hard to make. No one wants to tell their boss the deadline needs to be pushed back a week or give up tickets to a concert tonight. But if you have to cancel something, do it without any regrets or guilt. Just do your best.
Doing your best may require telling someone “no”…the hardest word in the English language for some people to say. But no is not a dirty word. It is a surviving word and something we all need to become more familiar with. It’s okay to say “no.”
Today is my say no day. It’s one filled with chaos and I’m prioritizing it cautiously. I am letting go of yesterday and of the hurts that come from not being able to do the things I used to be able to do. I’m choosing to focus on those things I can do.
Right now, my bed is calling my name and even though it’s still really early in the morning, I’m going to sleep. That’s one of those can do things on today’s list.