What was I trying to say?

Words. We all use them. When we aren’t speaking them out loud, we are thinking them in our heads or writing them down on scraps of paper. Not one day goes by without the use of words. My words, though, seem to come out all mixed up. It’s as if someone took my vocabulary, put it into a blender and then dumped all the chopped up words on a table. Only somehow, some of the words got lost. Maybe the dog ate them. I think I’ve seen him talking when he thought no one was watching.

While writing, somehow I seem to put words into sentences that don’t actually belong and leave others out. It’s just as bad when I talk. I will say something and then pause for a moment wondering “What did I just say?” I know I have left people scratching their heads in bewilderment as I matter-of-factly explain something I need done, then wonder why they aren’t doing what I asked.

Somehow I hear everything correctly inside my head but the words that exit my mouth…well, they aren’t the ones I was thinking. It’s the old “bait and switch” routine that my brain plays with me. He’s a sneaky bugger.

It’s crazy how the filter between my brain and fingers, or my brain and mouth, seems to get things all mixed up. I wonder if there’s a replacement filter I can install? They make oil filters for my car that have to be replaced after so many miles of use. Can I get a word filter replacement for my brain, please?

And don’t even suggest turning on auto correct. Auto correct messes me up even more. I am convinced it’s trying to take over the world. It will rewrite my words into different words and insert random words into sentences that have nothing to do with what I’m trying to say. That’s when I get really confused. Many times as I look at something I’ve written, I’m left wondering what I was even trying to say in the first place.

According to auto correct, not only do I “create new words” but I’m “cursing bee wigs” too. I didn’t even know bees had wigs. I’ve heard something mentioned once about bees knees, but never about wigs. Do they even have hair?

Oh, the joys of Multiple Sclerosis. If you can’t laugh, you will have a miserable time in the days and years ahead. Laugh and keep on laughing. Or as auto correct just corrected me, “lift and keep on lifting.”

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Penelope Conway

Penelope Conway
Penelope started Positive Living with MS as a way to help others with MS stay positive in the midst of a terrible disease. She believes that staying positive and holding onto hope is the key to waking up each morning with the strength to get through the day. Multiple Sclerosis may never go away, but neither will her determination and her drive to help others through the journey.

40 replies
  1. Wendy Aitken says:

    Yep, what makes it worse for me is when people just talk above me/through me/don’t even give me a chance to talk…it’s almost as if I’m not there I can see the vacant look on their face
    I’ve got to the stage of don’t ask me questions or talk to me if you are not interested/don’t want to hear what I have to say, so I just keep quiet!
    I talk to myself, answer myself & can even argue with myself…besides I’m make sense to me

  2. June
    June says:

    Oh my gosh! Happens to me every day. I feel like I’m crazy. I loose words all the time. Start to say a word and all I can see is the letter the word starts with. Embarrassing and frustrating. And then there are the times I say a completely wrong word, instead of what I meant!…all we can do is laugh!

  3. Natalie Borodchak says:

    Oh my! I was just at my neuro for a check up and we both had a hard time not cracking up because he could and couldn’t guess what I was trying to say.
    “Charades or just trying to fly” LOL

  4. Monique Coles says:

    Like your brain knows your walking,but your legs seem to have their own agenda.Reminds me of something funny that happened to me,when I was working in the deli,couple of years ago,but was dx at this stage.We called out no’s to put customers in order,was always worried when 69 came around,who’d be standing b4 me.Anyway was up to 48,next thing out of my mouth was 69,oops,was that really me,absolutely was.Pretty sure my old work mates still laugh about it!!

  5. Rodger Ashton-Smith
    Rodger Ashton-Smith says:

    I used to have that problem, but I on’t anymore. I am getting my eyes fixed tomorrow so I can rea your messages better. And the “d” buton is playing up on my computer so this is short.

  6. Wendy
    Wendy says:

    Oh, the things I say is a constant amusement to my family.
    For instance, “go vacuum your teeth!” I’m just glad there’s something about ms that we can laugh about.

  7. Becky
    Becky says:

    So glad to see this. I noticed in the last month that I can’t pronounce some words correctly. They are in my mind the correct way but when I say them they are not right. Glad I’m not alone.

  8. Lissa Ann Bliss Ford says:

    This happened to me this morning whilst trying to make an announcement over the tannoy at work today…. -__-‘ everything just came our as a jumbled mess…. -___-‘ so embarrassing!!

  9. Jolie
    Jolie says:

    There was one day when I couldn’t remember the word think and I kept telling my husband “I’m having trouble braining today.” He thought it was hilarious. Thankfully, he’s learning to speak MS.

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