Logic board failure

There’s a short circuit somewhere in my brain

Have you ever had one of those days when everything seemed to go wrong? Where the unexpected happened more than once and you hadn’t even gotten out of bed yet? Those days can be frustrating, irritating and make you want to scream. I’ve been there more times than I can count.

That’s kind of how I feel when my laptop starts acting up. It doesn’t happen often, but I have had times when my computer has failed me. I’m a fix-it-myself kind of person. A techie geek who thrives on having a well running computer. I will visit online forums reading from people who know more than me in order to resolve a problem.

One time I had a person reply to me on a message board, “Since you’re getting that error, you need to do this and this.” So, I did this and this, but it didn’t work. Then someone said, “No, you need to click that and change this.” So I clicked that and changed this but that didn’t work either.

I attempted suggestion after suggestion with still nothing fixing my problem so I ended up doing what we all do, I went to the experts. When I brought my computer in to get checked out even their diagnostic programs were unable to pinpoint the problem. Their answer, “We need to replace the logic board.” (That’s just a fancy word for the board inside the computer that handles all the communication processes.)

Computer failures are a lot like Multiple Sclerosis. You may have difficulty with spasticity in your legs and someone will say, “You need to take potassium. That’s what I do and it worked great.” You buy some to try and you become disappointed because it doesn’t help.

Then someone says, “No, you need to change how you do this and do that instead.” So you do what they suggest and still no change. Then someone else comes along and says, “No, no, no, they are all wrong. You need to eat this and take this other thing.” So you do…and again no change.

So many solutions for just one problem, yet because we are all unique and we all have a different internal wiring system, what works for one person many not work for another.

The biggest thing I would like for people to understand—both those who live with MS and those who don’t—is that every person’s internal “logic board” may connect all the same parts together, but somewhere deep inside where no one can see, there’s a malfunction in those of us living with MS that has disrupted the communication between our brain and our body.

Sometimes a simple tweak or adjustment here or there does the trick and we are up and at em’ going strong once again. But sometimes the “logic board” has failed to the point that no one—not even the experts—can pinpoint where the failure is taking place.

It would be amazing if we could simply replace our body’s internal “logic board,” but we only have one so we have to take care of the one we have as best we can. My response to the barrage of fixes and solutions people push my way…”Thank you for your care and concern. I appreciate your suggestion, but I know my body and am doing what I believe is right for me.”

Everyone wants MS to be cured, especially those of us living with it day in and day out. How about instead of pushing the latest craze or fix, we chose to love each other and simply be there to support a persons decision in how they believe their MS should be managed. Giving someone a hug or holding their hand is so much more comforting than pushing internet solutions and unfounded fixes at them.

When everything around you seems to be falling apart, know that you are not crazy or alone. There are others feeling the say way. Do what you believe is right for you to do and don’t get discouraged by all the nay sayers, experts and trendies. If nothing else, remember this one thing: Even though your body has failed you, you are not a failure. You are not your MS.

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About the Author
About the Author
Penelope Conway

Penelope Conway
Penelope started Positive Living with MS as a way to help others with MS stay positive in the midst of a terrible disease. She believes that staying positive and holding onto hope is the key to waking up each morning with the strength to get through the day. Multiple Sclerosis may never go away, but neither will her determination and her drive to help others through the journey.

43 replies
  1. Roger Ashton-Smith
    Roger Ashton-Smith says:

    Thanks Penelope, it’s nice to know I m not the only one with dumb’ suggestions given to fix problems. You know it only comes from the ‘professions’ that give seemingly dumb answers. Like those that haven’t got MS trying to understand about our problems and fix us.
    I have been through a few horrible times last week with the MS a lead contender in the battle, but I won and today I am better much to MS’s knowledge that I was sick.

  2. Kathy Buys says:

    Some people choose to follow their own interpretation of another’s disease. No matter the facts, no matter the truth. Those people are so cruel & lack empathy to their own detriment. There’s no changing their minds, they would have to say they are sorry & they just aren’t going to do that . Regardless of the damage they do, they just have to be right. So sad….

  3. Tania Padilla says:

    Last week I sent my son’s phone to be repaired exactly from the Logic Board…….Could I be sent to LG to be repaired to? ……When I read the article I saw I feel exactly as it is described………..

  4. Sara Fielder says:

    I can’t begin to tell you how much this resonates with me right now. Last week I made the mistake of lamenting on FB about my cognitive issues. Of course I got a bunch of “well, those things happen as you get older. It’s no big deal responses.”. It really aggravates me when my “friends” make stupid comments like that. They say they want to understand, and they want to support me, but belittling a cognitive symptom that is extremely challenging for me to live with isn’t supportive at all. It just makes me feel like I have to hide it, and I get really tired of having to hide.

    • Brooks Rose says:

      You are so right! One of my very best friends told me that and it was very disheartening. I didn’t say anything about it but now, because of things like that and not wanting to be , “bummer,” to hang around, I don’t really tell anyone but my doctor what’s happening.

  5. Juana Driver says:

    Oh my! I so needed this. What a month! Nothing severe just old symptoms revisiting. Phone tag with 3 doctors offices, who wants to take charge to solve this issues. Try this, do this, call, schedule, test, call me back. If my circuit board wasn’t having glitches I might be able to tell you straight up best route to take. Not too many friends around offering suggestions this far into diagnosis. Or family. Don’t know if I would be giggling or growing stronger in knowledge if I had not found you! May your day be blessed and thank you! (I need a copy of this in my purse to hand out! You’ve done it again!)

  6. Lara Hayes
    Lara Hayes says:

    Hi Penelope, what a great interpretation. For someone who used to spend a lot of time with computers, I hadn’t made that connection. Maybe if I start telling my computer minded buddies that my Motherboard Sux they may understand my MS a little better!!

  7. Jon Andrews says:

    In the two weeks since my diagnosis, all of my friends suddenly became experts on nutrition, especially vitamins, essential oils, and crystals. I’m still trying to make sense of it all.

  8. Shannon Powell says:

    I’m currently at work, on my bday. As a gift, God gave the Internet here MS. IT had been diligently trying everything to fix it with all the usual remedies to no avail. The story you just shared is a perfect illustration of MS and the Internet here at work. Lol. Happy birthday to me.

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