My walking only happens now each morning in therapy when I have a gait belt secured around my waist and rails to hold on to. My shoe choices have become limited due to the fact that I wear AFO braces to help me walk (one on each leg). Because of that, I get creative with the socks I wear.
I have brightly colored ones; striped, polka dotted, and weird patterned ones; and I even have those crazy toe sock ones. Of course, since I don’t feel my toes very well, the toe part of the toe socks don’t always stay in place, but regardless, I love them.
My collection grows every time I visit the store. I guess you could say I am a sock hoarder…well, not really, but you have to admit that does sound kind of cool. I don’t think I’ve ever met a sock hoarder before so I’m not sure what one would look like, but if the trend could be started, I’m starting it.
The good thing about having so many socks is that I can mix and match them when the pairs get separated from one another. I’m still not sure where they disappear to, but they have this strange ability to run away. I think they are running away from multiple sclerosis. I would if I could run.
But no matter how much I would love to leave MS behind in the dust or how much I wish it wasn’t there…the reality is that MS is a part of my life. It stinks…I know. It’s kind of like that ugly mismatched pair of socks that somehow ended up left behind all year in your gym locker covered in sweat and never making it home to the washing machine. MS stinks like that…bad!!!! Some days more than others, too.
When you are having a bad day because MS is raising a stink, know that it’s okay to cry. I cry often and I’m not ashamed to say it. Yes, this positive focused MSer cries. But being strong has nothing to do with whether someone sheds a tear or not, so don’t believe for a moment that you are weak when you cry. You are not only strong…you are MS strong. That’s a kind of strength that defies logic.
You are strong, you are brave, and you are going to make it. If you haven’t figured it out yet, you wear odd, crazy and weird well. Be proud of the person that you are. I know I’m proud of you. Take time to cry today if you need to, then pull up your socks, go out and conquer the day. You can do this!