I woke up this morning, made my way to the bathroom to get a shower and the first thought that popped into my head was “Ugh, another day with Multiple Sclerosis.” As soon as that thought showed up I knew it wasn’t a wonderful cheery thing to be thinking. But hey, I’m human and thoughts like that happen.
The day hadn’t even officially begun and I was already thinking about how my wheelchair has become my best friend rather than a pair of running shoes. About the pile of dirty clothes that need to be washed and yet how I have zero energy to load the washing machine to get the first load started. About how much pain my body is in every second of every day. About how extra hard everything in life seems to be now days from putting on my socks, to brushing my teeth, to filling up the gas tank in my van, to buying toilet paper.
We all have moments when thoughts like that appear. Thoughts that we really don’t want to be thinking but show up anyway. I know I’m not the only one waking up wishing that MS didn’t exist and having a woe-is-me morning.
As I pondered my dreary, self-focused morning thoughts I realized fairly quickly that I needed to adjust my thinking. Today, this very day that I woke up to dreading, is someone else’s chance at living. How can I throw that away? How can I waste 24 hours—time that I can never get back—choosing to fill it with sadness and regrets.
This day…today…the very one that I woke up to feeling exhausted and disappointed in because of MS. Yes, this very day is a blessing to someone else. All of those things I woke up dreading are seen as a blessing in their world.
There are people today thankful for the chance to fix things they messed up yesterday, thankful to spend one more day with their family and friends, thankful for the pain they have to endure because it simply means they are alive, thankful for an opportunity to see a doctor even if that means they have to travel hundreds of miles to get there, thankful to have a wheelchair even if it’s second-hand, worn out and falling apart.
I can choose to be one of those grateful, thankful people or decide to waste away my day on regrets and sorrows. And so can you.
How about I start things over?
Good morning, sunshine…today is a new day. It’s a chance to do something great. It’s an opportunity to truly live and make a difference. There is only one today and each second of it is precious.
Don’t waste the day pondering regrets and sorrows from your woulda, coulda, shoulda thoughts. Invest your time into the lives of those around you and into yourself as well. It’s worth it. You’re worth it.