This morning I woke up and for a moment I actually forgot that I had MS. That is, until I flipped back the covers to get out of bed. My body just doesn’t move when I want it to move and it sure doesn’t do the things I need it to do. As I was pulling my legs over the side of the bed I thought how silly it was to forget that my body doesn’t cooperate with my brain any more.
I haven’t felt my feet, lower portions of my legs, the right side of my body or parts of my face for a long time. And to top that all off, pain, dizziness and vision difficulties have been a constant for just as long. I’m not sure how all that got overlooked this morning. I am convinced my brain was playing a practical joke on me. It was the ultimate in morning brain fog for me.
We do that though, don’t we? MS just doesn’t quite fit into our daily routine…even after years of living with it. We learn to adapt, but it still has the ability to sneak up on us and overwhelm us. Some days it can be relentless.
You know what I have discovered? I have found that those of us living with MS are some of the most creative and clever individuals around. In order to keep going, we learn to adapt our lives to the limitations MS has caused. We come up with some really crazy looking techniques and contraptions too.
I have developed my own unique way of styling my hair in the mornings since my right hand doesn’t work so well. Chopping vegetables is an experience but something I have been able to do even though I am limited in strength. Clipping my toe nails, now that one is a doozy, but I am able to get it done by using both hands and a sturdy surface for stability.
If I want to get something done, I will keep working at it until I come up with a way to do it. It may look strange to others as they watch from a distance, and it may take me ten times as long to accomplish, but it gets done. That’s all that matters to me anyway.
There are still times when I get discouraged though. Times when the job in front of me is too much. I have been known to shed a few tears over the laundry simply because I couldn’t pull the wet clothes out of the washing machine. But if you give me a moment when things like that happen, allow me time to process my thoughts and catch my breath, I will come back and find a way to get it done. I won’t let the word “can’t” come out of my mouth.
If you are facing a mountain today, something that has you overwhelmed, take a moment to catch your breath. Step back. Pause. Give yourself a moment. Then calmly pick yourself up and tackle it head on. You will be amazed at what you can accomplish. You have the strength within you to get it done.