Today I was jolted awake with the thought, “Oh, no…what day is it?” It was a sudden thought. One that I didn’t have time to fully process. My brain just couldn’t seem to work things out on its own. It was as if someone had poured sticky, gooey, hot molasses all over it. At least molasses would have been a valid excuse to have. Having an MS brain isn’t as easily explained.
On days like today when my brain just doesn’t seem to be able to process one single thought properly, I find myself working extra hard to make up for it. I pause while I’m talking to help as I’m searching for the right words to say, I take notes to help keep me on track, I even defer to others so they can finish what I’m saying. It’s amazing how extremely exhausting all that is. Thinking to think is hard work.
This morning, I can’t even do that much. This morning is an “I lost my brain” kind of morning.
I can only imagine the person who accidentally stumbles across this weird looking blob called my brain lying somewhere between the mailbox and the bathroom. Will they even know what they have found? I hope my brain returns soon because as of right now…all I can do is simply roll over and go back to bed.
I think my brain ran away because it was having to work too many hours and decided it needed a vacation. I wish it would have let me in on its plan though because I would have loved a vacation right about now. Anyone up for a trip to the caribbean?