A life with Multiple Sclerosis is not easy. Maybe it is for those living with a benign case of it, or for the ones that progress so slow that their symptoms are negligible or only slightly irritating. If all cases of MS could be so simple I would be extremely grateful and probably even do the happy dance in the middle of Main Street.
For many of us though, our days are more like a cross between a hard time and an intense struggle. Our daily routine is one of adaptation, change and change some more. MS is unpredictable. More unpredictable than the weather. Will it rain today? Snow? Maybe the sun will come out? Will I need to use a cane to get across the parking lot or do I need to be on the lookout for an available motor cart? Will my legs work, my vision stay clear, my hands cooperate, and my body behave?
I may not be able to control what my body is doing from one minute to the next, but there is a part of me that I do get to determine. I get to choose my reaction to the things happening around me. I get to choose whether I give up or keep going. I get to choose if I smile or cry. I get to choose bitterness or thankfulness. I get to choose whether I laugh when I end up on the floor while transferring from my bed to my wheelchair or if I sit in a puddle of self pity on the floor moping about how hard life can be.
Let go of yesterday. Let go of the hurts that come from not being able to do the things you used to do. Let go of the pain of change. Let go of the fears. Let it all go.
Sometimes we have to let go of the person we once were in order to see the amazing person we are becoming. You get to choose who that person is. I know I see greatness in you. I see someone who is brave, strong and courageous. Someone who has been dealt a terrible hand in life yet is still trying to make the best of it. Someone who isn’t perfect, but then again who is? Someone who is weak in their body, but oh so strong on the inside.
I hope you can see that too.