This morning I made an absolute mess of things. I was making my morning coffee, and for the umpteenth time, I spilled the coffee grounds all over the floor and myself because my hands fumbled and wouldn’t cooperate. I cleaned myself up and turned the coffee pot on so it could brew me a cup, but left the mess all over the floor for later.
As I’m writing this, I’m sipping on a freshly brewed cup of coffee while sitting in my bed knowing that there’s a mess in the kitchen waiting for me to tackle. And you know what? It can just wait. My typical OCD self wants it cleaned up now but my MS body says not now. Guess who won the argument? (grin)
Multiple Sclerosis has given me a greater desire to balance the demands in my everyday life…every single minuscule microscopic second of it. So if that means I need to put certain tasks on hold until I can manage them better, I’m going to do it. And without feeling guilty too.
You never know when something is going to happen to upset the balance in a day especially with MS being a part of things. Even something seemingly small can start the tilt motion in your world and begin toppling life out of control.
When you come to a place where life is no longer “normal”…well, at least no longer your normal, take heart. Days change, times change, seasons change, life changes and we have to learn to move with those changes. Some changes will come along and they will excite us. Things like a new baby in the family, a graduation, a promotion, a surprise gift. Those things are welcomed and make us smile. They bring joy to our heart and cause our insides to dance.
The changes we seem to cringe about are the ones that upset our comfort. Things like losing the ability to do something, ending a career, shedding friendships, unwelcome shifts to our routine. When those kind of changes happen, things that we don’t like, there are two choices in front of us. We can become angry, allowing the changes to drown us and swallow any bit of joy we have left inside of us or we can rise above the challenges thrown our way and use them to become a better person.
I know you don’t want to become someone filled with bitterness and anger at what is happening in your life, but I also know that it’s not easy to rise above the challenges of MS and find something of meaning in the mess. If it was easy everyone would be doing it, right?!
But you…you are strong and although at times you grow tired and long to throw in the towel, you are not a quitter. Don’t ever let a set back, change, or mess in life stop you from living. Keep moving. Keep going. MS may end your ability to do something but it can never keep you from living.
This morning you are awake, breathing, your heart is beating, you’re alive. If that’s the only thing you can be thankful for…that’s enough. Take this day one moment at a time, one step at a time, one second at a time. The hard times won’t last but the strength they build in you will.