Sometimes I laugh at myself, like yesterday when I accidentally dropped a cup of flour all over myself and the kitchen floor. Laughing about it was so much better than crying. Besides, tears mixed with flour would have created a sticky mess.
I have accidents all the time. I trip, fall, misplace things, forget appointments, and have lots and lots of mishaps. Accidents seem to be synonymous with Multiple Sclerosis. Some of us have more than others, but they seem to just be a part our life now.
There is one accident though that I hate more than any other. I hate when my bladder malfunctions and causes me to leak all over myself. I know people don’t like to talk about bathroom stuff. It seems to be a topic many avoid, but it’s a real problem with MS and something more people need to know about.
Thankfully two years ago the doctor recommended I get a suprapubic catheter surgically inserted. I am glad I had the surgery. It’s not maintenance free like some people may think though. Now I live with a tube coming out of my belly that has to be changed every month and I deal with a urinary bag attached to it.
No more accidents in the middle of the night or even during the day for that matter, but now I have the job of lugging a bag around with me and keeping it clean so it doesn’t smell over time. Since I’m in a wheelchair it’s easy for me to conceal a bag, but you have to think about where you will keep it. Will you wear it around your waist using a belly bag, on your leg with a leg bag, or in a pocket on the side of your wheelchair with an extension tube attached to a bag?
Since the muscles that control my bladder do not function properly and I have completely lost feeling in that are of my body, a suprapubic catheter was the best solution for me. I tried self catheters and I know many people who are successful using them, but my hand weakness and tremors make it impossible to manage. There are also some mechanical devices available that can help people control their bladder with meters, wires and button, but for me they wouldn’t have worked.
One good thing about me having the catheter is that I don’t have to rush to the bathroom every couple of hours, no more accidents in the middle of the store when I’m out and about, and no more sleepless nights because of multiple bathroom trips. Well, at least no more puddles on the floor.
Accidents are going to happen no matter what I do. Let’s see if I can make it through the day today without one, but if I do have one I will make sure to laugh about it. I hope you are able to do the same thing. Find something funny in the moment.