This is the truth, the raw truth from a person living with Multiple Sclerosis.
I can not go through life pretending…pretending that everything is okay, because the truth is, it’s not. Let’s get this out in the open instead of constantly whispering about it in the shadows. I am living with a chronic illness. You know it and I know it. It’s not by choice either. I didn’t pick Multiple Sclerosis out of a line up or grab it off the store shelf.
MS is not my fault. I didn’t cause it by the way I eat or the things I do. It’s not payback either for the things I’ve done in my past no matter how bad they may have been. MS picked me out of a crowded room and decided I was the one it wanted to live with. I had no choice in the matter.
The choices I do have are in what methods I decide to pursue in dealing with this illness. Those are my choices though, not yours. Just like this is my body and my life, I am the one making the choice in the way I will seek treatment. You have your own hardships and struggles to face.
I’m sure you wouldn’t like me getting into your business and matter-of-factly pointing out everything you need to be doing regardless of if I even know what I’m talking about. I’m not here to tell you how to live your life by giving you step by step solutions to all your troubles, so please stop judging me in how I live mine.
It hurts when people refuse to accept my diagnosis. MS is hard enough as it is, I don’t need finger pointing and constant “if you only” statements thrown around. Can we just be honest about everything? Can we face this together so I don’t have to face it alone?
I may be strong, but I’m not bulletproof. I keep going because MS has made me a stronger and better person, but that doesn’t mean I don’t hurt. The truth is I get scared, fail, struggle and even break. I don’t give up though. Nope…not me. I’m a fighter by choice and will keep fighting every day that I live. That’s the truth of my life.
Will you stand with me in the fight? If not, then get out of my way because I’m swinging at anything coming at me.