Yesterday I pushed my body further than I should have. I didn’t do anything extraordinarily difficult or exhausting, it’s just that my body has become more limited causing me to get creative in the way I do things which is not always a good thing. I think yesterday’s creative had a bit too much stubborn mixed in with it.
Everything was going great. I took my morning shower, had my coffee, read a bit online then went out to do a little work in the yard. I was pulling some weeds out of the garden and found myself fighting with a stubborn vine I wanted out of there. It wasn’t moving but I thought I wasn’t pulling hard enough on it since my hands are weak and I couldn’t grab it properly.
I wrapped the vine around one of my hands and pulled on my arm to try and free the vine from the dirt. By this time I was leaning over the right side of my wheelchair as I pulled. It was then that I heard my body crack. I don’t have much feeling in my upper torso but I knew that sound when I heard it. I cracked a few ribs and can feel the aftereffects quite well now…ouch!
Later, I realized I was leaning on the arm of the chair and must have been putting too much pressure on my ribs with the pulling motion on the vine causing them to crack. I knew at the time I was in an awkward position and shouldn’t be leaning over like I was but I didn’t think I would break my body like I did.
I know I need to be more careful when I’m out doing things by myself, but somehow my stubbornness wins those arguments and I end up paying for it later. Why do I have to be so stubborn?
The good thing is my ribs aren’t broken. The bad thing is there’s nothing to do about it other than wait for them to heal. Breathing hurts, moving hurts and even sitting up hurts right now. It would be wonderful if the numbness in my torso also numbed the pain.
Later in the day, I went to pour of cup of coffee knowing that I’m even more limited now than before because everything I do seems to be causing my ribs to ache. I tried to be careful but my hand slipped while pouring and the entire pot of hot coffee spilled all over my right hand, the counter and the floor. I immediately put my hand under cold running water and grabbed some ice but can definitely see the blisters now.
If that wasn’t enough, somehow during this whole fiasco my suprapubic catheter (that’s the tube coming out of my belly attached to a urine bag) got a kink in it and I ended up having an accident all over myself.
Bad thing about it all was that my ribs were so sore that it took much longer than usual to clean up. It wasn’t something I could simply leave for the magic cleaning fairies to clean up for me. I think they are away on vacation right now anyway. Eventually I got everything cleaned up, took a second shower and climbed into bed calling it a day.
Ugh, it’s going to be a down day for me today.
I’m actually laid up in the bed right now doing absolutely nothing. No laundry. No trips to the store. No shower. Just me, my pillows and my TV remote…and I’m okay with that. I’ve learned to enjoy the journey even when I end up in places I don’t want to be.
I’m not sure I have learned my lesson of not pushing myself too much. I have a feeling I will end up in more predicaments as time goes by, but I will try to limit them to when other people are around to help me out just in case my bright ideas fail. And I’ll laugh about it all later. That’s a guarantee.