This week, Monday came and went without incident. The only problem is that I don’t remember Saturday or Sunday having been lived through. I have tried hard thinking about the weekend but the only thing I can remember is that I can’t remember.
I think I went to the grocery store, but then again I might have done that on Friday. It rained much of the time and the temperature outside was much cooler…I think. I dozed off a few times in the living room while watching something on TV…I think.
There are so many possibilities that could have filled my time. It’s possible I might have buried a dead body in the back yard, I could have won a years supply of chocolate, or I just might have robbed a bank and am now a multi-millionaire. Who knows? I sure don’t.
The one thing I do know is that I’m still here breathing in and breathing out, alive, and ready for a new day, It’s weird how the brain works. You know how some people have selective hearing and can tune out things that annoy them? Yeah, well I think I have selective thinking.
It amazes me that I have no problem remembering the words to the Animaniacs theme song but easily forget that Tuesday is trash day unless I am reminded by an alert on my phone. If I didn’t have reminders to keep me on track I’d probably not get anything done.
I forget to call people back, answer text messages and respond to emails. It’s not intentional. It just is what it is. If I haven’t responded to you…sorry about that. If I forgot your birthday…again, sorry. If I can’t remember your favorite color, miss an appointment because I didn’t have it written down or forgot your name, trust me, it’s not on purpose.
Multiple sclerosis just has this way of scrambling my thoughts and at times turning them into mush. Sometimes I wonder how I get anything done at all.
Well, it’s time to restart a load of laundry that I left in the washing machine for a few days. Let’s see if I can get them re-washed, dried and put away without incident today. That is my goal. I’ll let you know how it goes.