I had an interesting past 4 days. Four days filled with pain, tears, doctors, meds and friends. Four days that shouldn’t have happened, but did. Four days that I’m thankful are over.
As many of you know, I ended up in the Emergency Room at the hospital because of a problem that occurred with my suprapubic catheter. For those unsure of what that is, it’s a tube that is surgically inserted into the bladder just below the belly button and attaches to a urine bag outside your body. The tube, or catheter as it’s called, has to be replaced once a month. I have it because the muscles that control my bladder no longer work properly. MS decided to paralyze them without getting my approval first and now my brain will no longer communicate with my bladder.
Well, my catheter change was done wrong by a nurse that comes to my house and it left me in extreme pain. And I do mean extreme. The urologists office was closed so the ER was my only option for getting help, but the only help they could offer was pain meds to get me through the weekend until I could see the urologist on Monday. That left me the entire weekend in misery.
Unexpected things like that happen in life. I hate it. We all hate it. But they happen. Each day we wake up to challenges and obstacles, and each day we must find the strength to get through them.
Today you may be faced with pain, weakness, uncoordinated legs, brain fog, dizziness, poor eyesight, numb body parts…so many things MS related. But you could also be facing stress on the job or at home, financial problems, relationship difficulties, sickness of a loved one, troubles with your kids…so many personal things that seem impossible to manage.
In the heat of the moment, it’s hard to see anything worth striving for when all you see is pain. Your thoughts are focused on getting through the next 5 minutes. Forget about tomorrow, you just want to make it through today. Sometimes it’s hard to see through the tears.
But just because the end appears to be far away or even impossible to find doesn’t mean it’s not there. I promise you…everything has a beginning and an end. Sometimes the end doesn’t happen the way we want it to, but it always comes and peace is always found. It’s just in those minutes, hours, days, years of going through the difficulties that we seem to get lost, discouraged, and weary.
I want to encourage you today…to let you know that you can do this. Don’t let the “going through” times weigh you down. Sure, MS may knock you down (sometimes literally) and mess with your plans, life may deal you a crappy hand, but don’t let that stop you from living.
You have to rise up with the kind of determination that never quits fighting. Don’t throw your hands up in surrender just because everything gets too hard. Take on the challenge and prove to the world (and to yourself) that you are not going down without a fight. Don’t stop trying, don’t quit, and don’t let MS get the last say in things.