Life isn’t fair. It’s tough and filled with plenty of bad things. I go through periods of time when I simply want to get away from it all…no distractions, no phone calls, no text messages, no people, no MS, no anything. It’s at those times when I will curl up in my comfy overstuffed chair, turn my phone off and do absolutely nothing.
I know it seems impossible to be able to do nothing because even doing nothing is doing something, but somehow I manage to do it. Wait a minute, maybe I really am doing something when I think I’m doing nothing but since my brain scatters my thoughts I forget the something I was doing which turns it into nothing. Now there’s a thought to ponder.
When I step away from the mess that is overtaking my life into a place of solitude, I come back better focused and able to get things done. Sometimes it’s takes just 5 minutes of being away to regroup my thoughts. Other times it’s more like 30 minutes, an hour or even a day. But that pause does something magical and helps me to tackle even the hardest of tasks.
I can remember the times when my workload would become intense at my job. The pressure, the stress…it would become overwhelming. When that happened, I would walk away from my desk and lock myself in a bathroom stall down the hall from my office to just pause and breathe. That was the only place I knew I could truly be alone and get away from everyone and everything. Somehow time stood still for me in the bathroom. Other times I would just go for a walk around the building or to the kitchen to get a fresh cup of coffee. Anything to get away momentarily so I could better focus.
I know that sounds weird to some people, but short breaks like that really help. We all need a place where we can get away from the craziness in life in order to simply breathe. The bathroom may not be the place you choose. For you it may be a moment of solitude in your car, or out taking a walk through the mall, or hiding in your bedroom closet under stacks and stacks of laundry…but regardless of where it is, it’s important to take that time.
It would be amazing to be able to take a vacation to some remote island anytime you needed a break, but that kind of thing just doesn’t happen so you have to create your own island of escape right where you are. Today my island is my alone time on the couch as I think about spring time, butterflies and picking fresh flowers. Something other than MS, medical bills and my to-do list.
Don’t feel guilty stepping away to take a pause. Take the time you need even if that means telling someone “no.” Take charge of your day…only make sure you always keep an island close by. A cool breeze, amazing view and some drinks with umbrellas wouldn’t hurt either.