Have you ever woken up in the morning and for a moment not just forgotten what you have planned for the day, but who you are, what day it is, where you are and basically everything and anything about life? That was my morning wake up experience today.
For a few minutes I sat in my bed and my mind was completely blank. Nothing, and I mean nothing, was there. It was a weird feeling. Most of the time that kind of thing happens when I’m startled awake from a deep sleep. It just takes my brain a bit longer to wake up than the rest of me.
When something happens that I can’t do anything about, I used to get frustrated and even angry. I hated not being in charge of my life, my brain and my body, but Multiple Sclerosis gave me a wake up call. It changed my way of thinking.
Because of MS, I have learned that sometimes in life we aren’t going to know what to do, and that’s okay. Sometimes, we aren’t going to know why things happen, how to fix them, or when they will get better. Sometimes, we are going to stumble our way through our day…many times literally. Sometimes we will find everything going well, then all of a sudden get slugged in the gut from out of nowhere with circumstances that change our day and life forever.
You are not alone feeling that way. We all experience it in one form or another. No one living with MS has an instruction booklet on how MS is going to affect them personally or something that shows them what they should do with each new challenge or symptom they experience. MS didn’t come packaged in pretty wrapping paper tied together with ribbons and bows.
When you start to feel lost along your journey, try not to hide yourself away. Step out from the fears and keep walking the road laid out in front of you. Even though MS may be difficult at the moment, I know you can do this.
Divide your day up into small segments and celebrate each one that you complete. Did you wake up today? Check! That’s your first victory to make note of.
You will find by celebrating each moment, that your day is filled with many more victories than defeats. Then when your day is over, you will know that you fought great battles, and although bruised and limping…you made it.