When the wind blows

I went outside yesterday and was almost blown over by the wind. I had a hard time fighting through it just getting to my van. It was blowing so hard that I thought I might float away. That actually happened to me once. Not the floating away part, but I felt like Mary Poppins when the wind lifted me off the ground.

I was eight years old and a hurricane was heading our way. I had one of those clear umbrellas shaped somewhat like an upside-down bowl so you were protected from the rain a little more. They were almost impossible for the wind to flip inside out.

School had let out early and as I was walking to the bus when a giant gust of wind hit me so hard that it filled the inside of my umbrella and lifted me off the ground. It felt like I was lifted a million miles into the air but in actuality it was more like 4 or 5 inches. For that short moment I could fly. It was scary and exciting all at the same time.

Some days Multiple Sclerosis comes along and hits me like that kind of wind. It hits so hard that everything becomes a struggle and I find myself fighting just to move forward. Sometimes it knocks me down, bowls me over and sends me sailing through the air into every wall and piece of furniture in my house.

Yesterday was that kind of day for me. I sat on the couch looking around at all the things that needed to get done but my body wouldn’t let me do any of them. My legs wouldn’t cooperate, my hands decided to rebel and my strength was nonexistent. Those kind of days can be depressing. You feel so useless and helpless.

Do you know what I did? I decided vacuuming wasn’t that important. Neither was the laundry, cleaning the kitchen or running the few errands I needed to run. The world wasn’t going to fall apart if those things didn’t get done so I made myself comfortable on the couch with my coloring book, TV remote and of course my comforting cup of coffee and I rested. No guilt. No shame. Okay, a little at first, but I kept telling myself that it’s okay and enjoy the moment regardless of the circumstance.

One thing MS has taught me is to set my sail and ride the wind that comes with each new day. I may not officially fly away when the strong gusts of wind come from out of nowhere or the torrential rains pour, but I’m not going to let MS keep me from enjoying my day regardless of what I’m facing. When the winds of MS shift (which can happen multiple times in one day), I have learned the importance of shifting with them.

The wind will blow in life whether it’s because of MS or any number of problems…and when that wind blows, you have to learn to stop fighting the current and simply let go. Let go of the anger, hopelessness, frustrations, and fears. Let go of the past and the defeating thoughts that run through your head because things just didn’t work out as planned. Let go of having to be in control of everything.

You can soar through the storm…you just need to let go.

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About the Author

Penelope Conway

Penelope Conway
Penelope started Positive Living with MS as a way to help others with MS stay positive in the midst of a terrible disease. She believes that staying positive and holding onto hope is the key to waking up each morning with the strength to get through the day. Multiple Sclerosis may never go away, but neither will her determination and her drive to help others through the journey.

16 replies
  1. Rodger Ashton-Smith
    Rodger Ashton-Smith says:

    What a morning. Last night it took me about ten minutes to get into bed and felt horrible to get my body motivated to get in and not mess up my night catheter on my feet. But I got there with no extra trouble but this morning I felt like I had been on a bender but didn’t have the alcoholic problems, just moving was a problem.

  2. Amber
    Amber says:

    My biggest pet peeve is when a family member or a friend or a stranger says. “I know someone else with MS and they can do this or they can do that etc” “just get up you’ll feel better” “take aspirin for your pain, headaches etc” there’s so many things I can write on here of quotes that are ignorant, demeaning and belittling. Even from people you thought understood your disease.

    • Carla L Broadbent Rogers
      Carla L Broadbent Rogers says:

      Tell them ” Here are my shoes, you walk around in them for a day.” Be well and enjoy Your day.

    • Robin Francis
      Robin Francis says:

      I. Like that one I am very lucky I have progressed to PPMS and all my friends at my local have no second thoughts about passing my drink as I have to use a straw they just class it as normal.

    • Nicholas
      Nicholas says:

      I have been reading everyone’s post an I have ms as well an I had no idea every an all things being said make perfect sence now.my name is Nicholas.im not even sure how I found this page.but last night was horrible.something new happened again.never happened before but man was it painful.all I can ssy is going to the bathroom really was bad.

      • Nicholas
        Nicholas says:

        Oh an for sure I will make sure to go to my ms meetings.i haven’t gone yet but for sure now I gotta know more.

  3. Luisa Vidal
    Luisa Vidal says:

    I hope everything is good with you I woke up this morning I couldn’t move my back in so much pain I went to a shelter if power went out so there was no air conditioning all I did was cry and when everything was said and done I said I want to come home they told me no I couldn’t leave and everything was alright in Orlando and where I was nothing happened thank God and they wouldn’t let me leave so I had to get a little bit loud sign myself out me and my son my son has CP it was rough the Heat and not place it was like it was a hundred degrees and even though it was Daylight already and everything was gone they wouldn’t open the doors they weren’t set up for people with special needs even though that’s what it was a place for special needs they were in equipped for all of us so sad lonely one

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