Have you ever felt worthless, hopeless and more like a crumpled piece of paper tossed into a trash can than anything of value? What is it about living with multiple sclerosis that makes so many people feel like an outcast?
Over the years I watched as my life transitioned into a beautiful butterfly then, bam…MS came along, damaged my wings and interrupted my life. I found myself unable to fly and when I did try, I tended to run into walls or fly crooked rather than soar among the clouds.
It came to a point where I no longer believed myself to be worthy, important or valued, but just because my legs don’t work or my body is weak doesn’t mean I’m of little value. I may drop things easily, fall over even while sitting down and require help opening an easy to open package, but those things don’t make up the person that I am. I am not my imperfections. I am not my MS.
The world has created this image of life. It’s an image of unrealistic perfection. I hate to burst people’s bubble here, but no one is perfect. Seriously! No one! We are all flawed in our own way. It may be because of a disability, a crooked toe or a birthmark covering your arm, but to me those things aren’t imperfections…they are beauty.
Many times in life I have felt like the first cake I tried to make. I spent a lot of time and effort putting together my masterpiece only my attempt at making a cake appeared to be a disaster. Each layer of the cake broke as I was removing them from the pans. I carefully pieced everything together on a plate but I think my icing was a bit too thin or maybe I piled it on too thick because the cake was leaning to one side and looked as if the slightest breeze would send the whole thing toppling to the floor. It looked like something ready for the garage heap.
I discovered in that moment that it was okay to be imperfect. I made no apologies for a misshapen leaning cake, after all cake is delicious in any form. My cake may not have won a blue ribbon, but at the end of the day, every morsel of it had been eaten and enjoyed. Perfect or not…it was pretty darn good. The empty plate can attest to that.
It seems people get tossed away and forgotten way too easily in the world today just because they don’t fit the mold society has created, but that shouldn’t be. Everything has beauty in it…even you, MS and all.
You may be imperfect, flawed, hurting and feel utterly broken at times, but you’re beautiful in your imperfection. MS may limit your abilities and at times cause you to feel alone and worthless, but this world wouldn’t be the same without you in it. You are unmistakably beautiful.
A group of people in Paraguay decided to make music from things found in a landfill…from the imperfect and the broken things that others had thrown away. It’s amazing the music they create from things others carelessly get rid of.
Watch this video to see just how beautiful broken things really are…and remind yourself that you’re amazing just as you are.