You are strong enough

My right hand has grown increasingly weak. At first, it had just a slight tremor that was annoying but manageable. Now even when I’m holding it in a resting position, thankfully the tremors aren’t as prominent but it has a tendency to curl up making that hand a bit useless. I have trouble even pushing a key on my computer or holding onto a spoon.

The bad thing for me is that my right hand is my dominant hand. I have had to learn to do things with my left hand more and more. It’s not always easy, but I somehow seem to get things done. That’s kind of the way my life with multiple sclerosis has been from the start: symptoms show up that hinder my normal every day activities and I have to find a work around in order to keep functioning.

I hate it too. It’s amazing how much you rely on a certain body part and don’t actually realize just how much you do so until something happens to disrupt its use. I’m thankful for the parts of me that still work, but I still have a hard time with the parts of me that don’t.

I would be lying if I said it doesn’t bother me. I find that if I allow myself to hang out thinking about my weak hands, legs, vision, bladder, and all the things that I can no longer do, I end up in a puddle of tears. I have to force myself to keep moving forward and to find something good in the chaos. I can’t allow this disease to cripple my thoughts as it does my body.

Sometimes I put on a funny movie to help me shift my focus. Sometimes I talk with a friend or get involved in volunteer work. Sometimes I talk to myself and remind myself that I’m still awesome, even with MS hanging around.

You have to do that in order to keep your sanity. I have found that because of MS, my body is weak…but me, I’m stronger than I ever thought possible. I may not be able to open a pickle jar or hold onto a glass of water without using two hands and even then spilling it, but I am a warrior deep down. Sometimes my warrior roars, other times it is what holds me together when the struggle gets too hard to bear.

You got this. Even when you feel out of control and surrounded by struggle after struggle, you got this. Allow your inner warrior to come out and give MS the middle finger, a black eye and a wedgie all at once. You are strong enough.

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About the Author

Penelope Conway

Penelope Conway
Penelope started Positive Living with MS as a way to help others with MS stay positive in the midst of a terrible disease. She believes that staying positive and holding onto hope is the key to waking up each morning with the strength to get through the day. Multiple Sclerosis may never go away, but neither will her determination and her drive to help others through the journey.

6 replies
  1. Carol Drali
    Carol Drali says:

    I was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis 1 month after I turned 50. My was is 96 and had it since she was in her 20s. I was on Copaxone, the first year was daily and later I was on 40 mg, 3 times a week. It made a tremendous difference for me. Although the fatigue was what really gets to me. When I do too much, I do start to feel weak.There has been little if any progress in finding a cure or reliable treatment. My multiple sclerosis got significantly worse and unbearable because of my cognitive thinking.. Last year, i started on a natural multiple sclerosis Herbal therapy from Green House Herbal Clinic, i read a lot of positive reviews from patients who used the treatment and i immediately started on it. I had great relief with this herbal treatment. I am doing very much better now, no case of Cognitive thinking or memory Loss,, my multiple sclerosis condition is totally reversed.

  2. Peggy
    Peggy says:

    My problems exactly Penelope! Glad I’m not alone (as I type this one finger at a time with my left hand)😂

  3. Rodger Ashton-Smith
    Rodger Ashton-Smith says:

    Thanks Penelope we do have to take some sh:t with the good stuff. I have just had a soprapuge fitted and they didn’t tell me there was going to be days of chronic pain to deal, so I’m just going back to bed for a ;lydown to take the pressure off. Catch you later on the next post.

  4. Roland Clarke
    Roland Clarke says:

    As a wheelchair warrior, I try to let my writing do my fighting. I am grateful that my hands/fingers work better than my legs so I can still type – and my brain works most days. But I have to rise above the struggle and you are one of my inspirations. I’m not sure what I will do when my fingers give up; my speech is poor so I fear that training Dragon Naturally Speaking to understand might be a major task.

  5. Meeya
    Meeya says:

    Oh yes indeed – you are awesome, and strong, a real warrior, and most of all, a real inspiration for all of us, and my personal sunshine!! Thanks again for the constant reminder! 😂

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