Hanging by a thread

I have come through many days feeling emotionally as if I were hanging by a thread. That kind of feeling can be scary and so very real. It’s hard to talk about things like that with someone who isn’t where you are in the middle of MS and life.

Those worn out, overwhelming emotions can cause a person to grow weary and makes it incredibly difficult to see tomorrow because all possibilities of happiness today seem impossible.

Sometimes you have to get back to the basics in order to make it through the pain you are facing today. Think of your day like this…

Every cell in your body is fighting to survive right now. Your strength may be waining, but your heart is beating and you have breath in your body. Can you feel it? Breathe in. Breathe out. It’s a new day and a new chance for something good to happen. Sure, life is hard, but no matter what you are going through today, believe that things are going to be okay.

MS is not the end of your life. I know how alone you can feel surrounded by the chaos. I know how much life sucks when you are faced with this monster called multiple sclerosis. You probably feel like an iceberg drifting along in a vast open ocean. It’s freezing cold and you are the only one hearing the cracking of the ice beneath you. But look there, below the surface. There are layers and layers of strength holding you up. You are not going to sink in the waters. You are a survivor!

I want you to know that not only are you going to get through this, but you are going to live again. You will feel more joy than you thought ever possible. You will. You really will.

You may walk with a limp, talk with a slur and hang onto walls for support, but you are going to be okay. You may cry more than you thought possible and the load may be hard to carry, but you’re strong. So very strong!

When you feel like the world is crashing in around you, know that I’ve been there too along with thousands of others. You’re going to get through this. You can do it. You ARE doing it…one breath at a time!

10 replies
  1. Peggy
    Peggy says:

    Yes thanks I needrd that. Saw Dr for MRI yesterday. He and nurse comment oh you look great seem have so much energy… later dealt migraine and nap then couldn’t get bathroom on time or get pants back on!

  2. Rodger Ashton-Smith
    Rodger Ashton-Smith says:

    Thanks Penelope a good bit of advice. I am pleased somewhat having to get around in my wheelchair and having no falls and broken cutlery and plates etc. I know what it is like to be totally immobile and you can’t move a muscle to move or sit up. I have been there and don’t want to go there again. Just to get back to a normal place I have been bitten by some flying insect and it is very annoying, but it’s getting better so it can’t be MS

  3. terry
    terry says:

    Hi Penelope, i have been reading your posts (somehow found them on fb!). Now get them on email. I don’t have m.s. but my wife does. She doesn’t say a lot about it unless she has a “Weak turn” and then its just rest day or so. We have been wed for 7 years now, well what i am trying to say is what she tells me every day…. ” I Have M.S. But it doesn’t have me” . She is a strong willed woman, i love her for that. There are times that i think, like day trips out “Is this to much for her” but she would Never tell me… well that’s my bit for now. your blog has enlightened me. live and learn, every day is a school day. terry.

  4. Bonnie Burkley
    Bonnie Burkley says:

    Thank you…you help so much! After 38yrs. of MS…it still never seems to be real…even tho I have lived through every symptom and some not even mentioned. Blessings to you!

  5. Meeya
    Meeya says:

    Right you are, as always 😊
    Breathing consciously helps a lot. And chocolate 😁
    Never stop trusting that all will ultimately be well. It will, sooner or later.
    Big hugs!!!


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