Just so you know, I have my bad days. I have times when the struggle to think a clear thought causes me to cry rather than laugh. I know what it feels like to be overlooked when plans are being made by friends or co-workers. I know how exhausting, painful and utterly depressing life can be when multiple sclerosis just won’t give you a break.
It’s okay to feel like that. It’s normal. It’s actually quite healthy. It just proves that you’re human, that what you are going through is real. No one…and I mean NO ONE, gets through life only experiencing sunshine and roses. We ALL have moments of mud puddles, torrential rains and sinkholes.
Did you know that without a bad day we wouldn’t know what a good one was? Without the bad things in life…the good just wouldn’t really matter at all. In a way, you could look at it this way…as being grateful for the bad times because they make the good ones that much more brilliant and enjoyable.
We all have bad days. Times when we get stuck in the mud or sink in a pool of unexpected quicksand..but we also have the opportunity for good times too. So if you are in the middle of a bad day, bad week, even a bad year…know that a good one will come.
Sometimes those moments sneak up on you without you even noticing. You catch yourself humming a tune as you rinse off the dishes or whistling as you start a load of laundry. Other times it’s more like you won the lottery as moment after moment piles up and you find yourself wearing a smile the entire day.
Those times are amazing when they come. They are a welcomed relief to the struggle. Don’t let the fact that you are having a hard time smiling today keep you from being hopeful for tomorrow. Don’t give MS the satisfaction of stealing your smile.
The good and bad ebb and flow just like the tides of the ocean. That’s why it’s so important to learn how to ride the waves. This way when the waters swell and the waves begin pounding at the shore, you won’t go under. You will be able to ride it through, and then when the waters calm you can catch your breath and rest from the struggle.
If you are in the middle of a storm right now, hang on, it will get better. If you are in the middle of glorious rest, hang on and tuck those precious moments down into the deepest places of your heart to be remembered because those moments aren’t guaranteed to last forever either.
It’s important to never lose your smile in the journey. Carry it around with you everywhere you go so when those bad days come, and we all know they will, you will have something real to pull out and wear that contradicts the typical response to a bad day and defies all thinking of what it means to live with a chronic illness.
It’s an amazing thing to see someone smiling in a storm. It’s like finding a rainbow in the darkness of a hurricane or watching rays of sunshine peaking out from behind a sky covered in clouds. You have the ability to do that…to be that. To be something beautiful in the dreariness of life.
Be the rainbow, be the sunshine, and help someone else be the same. Imagine how bright this world would be if we all found our rainbows and sunshine at the same time. Never give up hope!