I don’t have much to say today other than it’s raining outside and I refuse to let it rain inside too. I know that’s something easier said than done but regardless of how things may look, I’m determined to find the good around me.
I’m not having a great start since my alarm clock woke me up after only 2 hours of sleep due to dealing with terrible pain and muscle spasms much of the night, but at least I got some sleep. I could have had no sleep at all so I’m thankful for what I did get.
Those kinds of nights happen more often now than in times past and I’m still tying to work my way through them. That’s something most people will never see or even realize I am facing. Don’t let anyone discount your struggle or assume that it’s not real just because they can’t see it. I doubt they would even make it out of bed faced with the same monster.
I then discovered there are no clean towels in the bathroom. I now have to postpone taking a shower, but at least I have a washer and dryer in my home and don’t need to load a pile of towels and clothes in my car and drive to a laundromat in order to wash them. That’s something to be thankful for.
Did I mention it’s raining out? That means I will have to leave the house earlier than planned in order to fight my way through crazy traffic on wet roads. That’s always an adventure. But at least I have some place to go and a way to get there.
I may seem to be the strong one but I have my moments when I crumble. Somehow my strength still shines through my weakness… especially in my weakness. I think that’s where it hangs out. You have strength out there too. It may not seem like it, but you are so strong. Much stronger than you think.
Every bad thing we face comes with its reasons to bring us down, but along with those reasons there is always another perspective we can choose to see. My choice today…finding something to be grateful for in the mess. No matter what happens or how hard things may get, I know I have to keep pushing on and I am determined to find a spark of hope somewhere in the chaos.
My emotions may be a bit on edge and I may feel rushed, exhausted, weak in body, overwhelmed, and ready to cry, but I want you to know that it’s okay to cry… especially in the rain. Sometimes that’s the best place to cry.
Now, where’s that rainbow. I may not find the end of it or a giant pot of gold waiting for me, but the smiles it provides are priceless.