It’s really easy to get discouraged living with a chronic illness especially when your plans, dreams, and hopes have all been crushed, sometimes destroyed, changing your life more than you ever thought possible. Some of the changes are minor like a numb finger that annoys the heck out of you and some are more catastrophic like losing your eyesight or your ability to walk.
I have personally spent countless hours fighting, struggling and crying in an attempt to wiggle free from a disease that is holding me captive and I have yet to find long lasting relief. At different times, people have come along giving me the ole “pep talk” telling me that I have MS but MS doesn’t have me, and although I appreciate them taking the time to share, their words of encouragement seem to actually discourage me more than help. Maybe you’ve been there too.
Life just changed too much and I wasn’t prepared for the onslaught of changes that happened. I don’t know anyone that can be prepared for such a life-altering time. I have spent a lot of time over the months and years looking back at what once was, and in doing so I discovered that the true freedom I was seeking wasn’t in the what once was. It’s in the what will be. A place that I can be an active part of.
We each have a future ahead of us. Maybe not the future we wanted but there is still a future and we can’t move forward chained to the past looking back wishing things were different. We have to let go of what once was in order to live in the now and become a part of the what will be.
So take it from me… You’re hurting, not defeated. You’re broken, not destroyed. You’re overwhelmed, not conquered. You’re weak, not powerless. You have worth and tremendous value. You are perfect just as you are in an imperfect body. Now is not the time to give up, quit or give in. Swim through the tears and refuse to drown.
Never forget that warriors don’t always feel like champions but that is exactly what they are. Being a champion is a state of mind. Quitting is not a part of their vocabulary. You have to fight regardless of the difficulties ahead of you. Today belongs to you. Be the champion warrior you are deep inside. You’ve got what it takes.