This morning I woke up before the sun. I didn’t plan on it but the pain in my body and muscle spams wouldn’t let me sleep. So how do I get through a day when I’m sleep deprived, in pain, have constant muscle spasms, and am miserable?
For me, I try to put things into perspective in order to not get so overwhelmed with the storm I am living in. Multiple sclerosis can absolutely be horrible to deal with, but I’m alive…and for that I’m thankful. I also had a chance to write a post which wasn’t easy since I hunt a peck to put any sentence together. I am no longer able to type 80 WPM and I have yet to master Mac accessibility typing or Dragon. I want to correct everything the computer does wrong as I go, making it hard to finish a thought. I know that’s not how things are done but that’s the only way my brain works. For the fact that I even have a post today…I’m thankful.
I had to come to place of understanding that MS is now the center of my world and the place I need to put my focus for my own personal well being. Others won’t see that need so I have to make it my own personal goal. That’s not me being selfish…that’s me taking care of myself.
I have discovered over the years that I’m the only person who wakes up with me in mind. I’m the one wanting to be a better me, to have a more meaningful life, to do something to improve my health, and wanting to ease my burdens. Others may have a passing thought of me, but I’m the one actually living my life. Why don’t I put more importance on taking care of me?
I have made a choice of following a daily exercise routine, doing better with the foods that I eat, and resting more throughout the day. Just making those changes alone have made my life more bearable. Who would have thought self care could be so rewarding?
Yes, I’m that important. Yes, you’re that important.
Instead of focusing on how bad you feel and how difficult a day can be (choosing to have an internal pity-party), be determined to find the parts of your life that are a joy. There is good in every day. If you are only focused on feeling bad for yourself and all you are facing, you will miss it.
Don’t miss the good in today. Pause and take a moment to realize just how much you have to be thankful for. Thanksgiving shouldn’t be the only day we stop to think on those things. Do it today. Make today your day of thanksgiving. What are you thankful for?