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I woke up today and for that I’m thankful

This morning I woke up before the sun. I didn’t plan on it but the pain in my body and muscle spams wouldn’t let me sleep. So how do I get through a day when I’m sleep deprived, in pain, have constant muscle spasms, and am miserable?

For me, I try to put things into perspective in order to not get so overwhelmed with the storm I am living in. Multiple sclerosis can absolutely be horrible to deal with, but I’m alive…and for that I’m thankful. I also had a chance to write a post which wasn’t easy since I hunt a peck to put any sentence together. I am no longer able to type 80 WPM and I have yet to master Mac accessibility typing or Dragon. I want to correct everything the computer does wrong as I go, making it hard to finish a thought. I know that’s not how things are done but that’s the only way my brain works. For the fact that I even have a post today…I’m thankful.

I had to come to place of understanding that MS is now the center of my world and the place I need to put my focus for my own personal well being. Others won’t see that need so I have to make it my own personal goal. That’s not me being selfish…that’s me taking care of myself.

I have discovered over the years that I’m the only person who wakes up with me in mind. I’m the one wanting to be a better me, to have a more meaningful life, to do something to improve my health, and wanting to ease my burdens. Others may have a passing thought of me, but I’m the one actually living my life. Why don’t I put more importance on taking care of me?

I have made a choice of following a daily exercise routine, doing better with the foods that I eat, and resting more throughout the day. Just making those changes alone have made my life more bearable. Who would have thought self care could be so rewarding?

Yes, I’m that important. Yes, you’re that important.

Instead of focusing on how bad you feel and how difficult a day can be (choosing to have an internal pity-party), be determined to find the parts of your life that are a joy. There is good in every day. If you are only focused on feeling bad for yourself and all you are facing, you will miss it.

Don’t miss the good in today. Pause and take a moment to realize just how much you have to be thankful for. Thanksgiving shouldn’t be the only day we stop to think on those things. Do it today. Make today your day of thanksgiving. What are you thankful for?

6 replies
  1. Maria Wieand
    Maria Wieand says:

    I read this and thought I was reading about myself. Last Sunday, I ended up in the ER after a major exacerbation from a very stressful start of the new year. My meds didn’t arrive on time after starting the process in November for a switch from paid insurance to disability Medicare coverage. You start out being proactive giving everyone the information in a timely fashion only to find out they didn’t give you the most important piece of information. You can’t get co-pay assistance from a pharmaceutical company when you are covered by Medicare with part D plan or a Medicare advantage plan. You would think the Ms one to one group would know this and would tell me in November so I could research grants for myself. I could keep going on but you get the picture. Thanks for making me laugh and know I’m not alone with no sleep, extreme pain and having to use a walker cause I can’t feel my left leg from the knee down.

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  2. Peggy
    Peggy says:

    Thank you Penelope! If nothing else I’m thankful not to be the only one that hunts and pecks to type now! LOL
    Someone suggested Dragon but it can’t understand my mumblings or Southern speaking!
    😀

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  3. Rodger Francis Ashton-Smith
    Rodger Francis Ashton-Smith says:

    Thanks Penelope I get help from a Florence Nightingale group who supply helpers to help me shower and dress during the week and weekend. I now have a regular group and have made friends of them so it can be a good break in my life. It takes away the extra pressure off my wife.

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  4. Jaycie
    Jaycie says:

    I am thankful for your posts. You always remind me that someone else understands. Today’s was particularly relate “walking up with me”. Thank you for each and every peck that you make and send out to all of us. You always brighten my day and give me a moment of meaningful peace.

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  5. Carla L Broadbent Rogers
    Carla L Broadbent Rogers says:

    Good day Penelope. Always look forward to our time. Your thoughts and sharing are little hugs and gentle pushes in this life with MS. Thank you and all good things now and always.

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  6. shari Johnston
    shari Johnston says:

    Wonderful post Penelope, you are always so inspiring and have played such a significant role in my life over these past years. You never let us give up on ourselves and that is saying a lot, I often wonder if you know how many lives you have touched over the years. Thank You! I hope that you find much joy in your day today.

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