Entries by Penelope Conway

My multiple sclerosis scars are real

Some of the memories we keep and the stories we tell about ourselves have to do with scars. You may have a teeny tiny scar on your finger from giving your best friend a haircut or a really big ugly one on your leg from a terrible bicycle accident, and every time you look down at that scar you are reminded of what happened and how you felt in the moment even if that event wasn’t very dramatic.

My Multiple Sclerosis jumbled up brain

Some days I really think my brain needs oiling, or maybe it needs repairing. Oh, who am I kidding…I just need a new one! You want to know why I forget appointments, people’s names, a movie I have already watch…twice, and what was said a few minutes ago? I think it’s due to the fact that my brain looks like a block of Swiss cheese on my MRI scans with holes scattered all over the place. 

We need to redefine strength

You never realize how strong you are until you are faced with a challenge that tests your strength. Many people see being strong as hiding your emotions, censoring how you feel and keeping it together at all times…basically to lie to yourself and to others that you even feel or have any problems in your life.

You choose

Everything you do in life begins with a choice. Even a choice of not choosing is a choice. That’s not an easy thing to grasp. Do you realize you will choose how to live today? You will choose everything down to if you end the day in tears or with a smile. You will choose how you live tomorrow too, and the next day and the next. That can be a sobering thought.