Entries by Penelope Conway

It’s another multiple sclerosis day…

I went to sleep early last night after taking a muscle relaxer due to spasms in my legs and hands, a pain pill because the pain was relentless and unsettling, and melatonin to hopefully help me sleep if those didn’t do the trick. I woke up this morning in a daze not remembering much of anything from last night…or from any night for that matter.

I am not multiple sclerosis and have not been misdiagnosed

I can’t seem to go through a week without someone voicing their opinion as to how I am to rid my body of this monster called multiple sclerosis. Some have suggested that I don’t even have MS at all; that it’s actually Lyme Disease or a deficiency of B12 or Vitamin D and that I just haven’t been properly diagnosed. All of those answers come from a place of a lack of information and too much Google.

When you feel like giving up…

When everything seems to be falling apart and the struggle to simply get out of bed becomes a monumental feat.
When the tears flow, the anger rises, and fears take hold of your day.
When the fatigue becomes overwhelming.
When you feel all alone because no one understands how hard even the simplest of things can be…

My multiple sclerosis life is filled with the unexpected

I’ve always heard that balance in life is essential. I have a feeling the person who originally penned that thought didn’t have multiple sclerosis. I can no more balance my body on a flat surface than balance my life on a daily basis. I can’t even balance my check book due to the financial strain of living with a chronic illness. A balanced life with MS sounds more like an oxymoron than a reality.