A multiple sclerosis life can be challenging

I woke up this morning uninspired by the coming days. I got my coffee and thought about what I had to do for the week. Not one of my favorite things because I know it’s going to be hard days ahead. A part of my lawn needs to be tilled and grass seed planted to remove the centipede grass that has taken over from the neighbors yard. My lawn is Bermuda grass. It’s supposed to rain tomorrow so I want to get it done before the rain. The seeds will need the water.

I also have a section of lawn in the front yard that has settled making a hilly part in that area a bit wonky. I need to dig up a portion of it, level the earth there, and replant the unearthed grass. It should be easy right? Ugh, wrong.

My legs don’t hold me up well and using my old powerchair that I use for gardening work is not that easy to use for the hard work ahead. My hands don’t work well either so it’s going to be a comical mess. I’m trying to psych myself up for it.

The thing I have to remember is that I’m not invincible and can’t do things as I could in the past. So what gets done, great! But be sure to give myself some grace as I go and don’t be too hard on myself for things not going as planned. That’s the actual hard part.

In my mind I should be able to do it, but I know my body will fail me along the way, and that’s okay. If I could hire a gardener, I would. That’s a given. But the work is up to me complete. Sometime that’s the hardest part… overcoming my bodily limitations and being okay with the outcome.

I must always pay close attention to how much I’m pushing myself and the added demands I’m placing on my body. It’s okay to take breaks and rest when needed but to always come back with renewed energy and determination. A multiple sclerosis life can be challenging, but it’s important to remember that we are all capable of overcoming obstacles.

Although I can’t plan for every hurdle I might encounter, understand that a slow but consistent effort is vital to rebuilding my strength and nurturing my body.

At times like these I’m reminded of the following quote…

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you’re trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest if you must, but don’t you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a fellow turns about
When he might have won had he stuck it out.
Don’t give up though the pace seems slow –
You may succeed with another blow.

Often the goal is nearer than
It seems to a faint and faltering man;
Often the struggler has given up
When he might have captured the victor’s cup;
And he learned too late when the night came down,
How close he was to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside out –
The silver tint in the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It might be near when it seems afar;
So stick to the fight when you’re hardest hit –
It’s when things seem worst that you must not quit.

– Edgar A. Guest