Each day I wake up to a fight with multiple sclerosis. Some days I have the strength I need to come up swinging but some days I don’t. MS has definitely thrown me some curve balls and sucker punches over the years. Sometimes it seems as if MS gets the upper hand as it blindsides me with a blow I wasn’t expecting. Today is one of those days.
It’s a day of wobbliness, fatigue, weakness and pain. Yet even on my worst days, when I feel as if I’m losing the fight, I find the strength I need. Not because I’m a super MS warrior, but because deep down inside I have determined that MS is not going to seize the day. I have decided I won’t quit or wave the white flag of defeat. I may be weak but I’m not defeated.
This war called multiple sclerosis is filled with daily battles. Some of those battles are easy and some can be really, really hard. Some days MS wins, but many days I win. When you are at your lowest and feel so bad that you’re ready to throw your hands up in surrender; when you don’t have the strength to punch, jab or even make a fist; take the time to rest up instead. You don’t have to stay in the heat of the battle every minute of every day. There is a difference in resting and quitting.
If you’re anything like me, sitting around doing nothing can make you feel unproductive and at times useless, but don’t let the fact that you need down time be your defeating moment. There is no shame in taking a break or even a nap!
Sometimes only a few hours are all that’s needed to give you the strength needed to keep going, other times you need days, but regardless of the time you need…take it and give yourself a break.
Don’t let today get the best of you. Take a deep breath and calm the thoughts that are racing through your mind. You may be weary and battle worn, but you are not defeated. Remember, sometimes you must rest a while, but just don’t quit.