Dear Weary One,
I know your heart is heavy. Right now you are on the verge of tears…tears that have been collecting deep in the spaces of your heart and flooding over into your mind. You have met reality face to face and you don’t like it one bit. Multiple Sclerosis is your reality. It’s real and you feel it deep.
Many times you find yourself overwhelmed and challenged in areas of your life that you never thought challenging before. You feel the weight of simply making it through today to be daunting as laundry piles up and errands are put on hold. You don’t feel very brave right now.
Sure, when you go out the door to greet the day with a smile plastered across your face, people see you as strong and resilient, but that’s a mask you wear out in public to cover the pain. They don’t realize the weight you carry.
In the quiet when you are able to get away from the crowds and business of life, that’s when the mask comes off. That’s when your thoughts run wild and the tears begin to fall. That’s when you find yourself wondering where your brave is…when you feel numb to the core and every emotion imaginable comes crashing in?
You find yourself asking where’s your brave when all you see is clouds around you? Where’s your brave when you tear up because you can’t find the strength to hold onto a pencil to write your name? Where’s your brave when you try to walk across the room but can’t seem to get your feet to cooperate and end up having to sit down? Where’s your brave when your words get all jumbled up trying to have a normal conversation? Where’s your brave then?
I want you to know that you are brave even when you don’t feel like it. There truly is strength in you. A strength so amazing that even you can’t see it…but others can. You’ve held on this long, you’ve made it this far, you’ve kept going when others would have long ago crumbled…that’s brave, that’s strong. You don’t see it, but I sure do. You are a brave warrior in this fight.
Rise up and be confident in who you are. Don’t give up just because the road is hard. It takes a strong person to wake up in the morning and face a new day surrounded by challenges, and you are doing it.
Discouragement will happen, exhaustion and stress will find you, but don’t allow your heart to grow weary too. It’s okay to let the tears flow. Sometimes that’s what you need to do to lighten the load. Let the tears flow then let it go and find your brave today, because you are brave!
A friend standing with you in the fight