No matter what happens, it will be okay
I had a rough night last night. I’m not sure what happened but I spent my night hugging a bucket as nausea took over and I spent my time vomiting. I had a fever too and even had to turn my air conditioner on full blast for a time just to get comfortable. My stomach muscles worked overtime to empty out my system. So, now I’m empty but have yet to drink anything because last night it didn’t end well when I tried. I want a little bit of rest first before I try again.
That has never happened to me before to that extreme but I’m glad everything has calmed down a bit. I wonder if it was due to a new medication I took yesterday. It must have disagreed with me and sent my system into a downward spiral. I normally can’t take many new meds even aspirin or something disrupts my cellular response. At least I know what to avoid in the future.
That kind of thing happens a lot with me. Multiple sclerosis has put a kink in everything I do. I had forgotten how hopeless life can become when new problems happen out of the blue. At one time the difficulties had me hating everything… including life. But then my new MS friends changed everything. They understood the unusual reactions of my body. Maybe not really understood them, but they knew that they would happen and how to go with the flow.
Over time I have come to realize the life that I have. The spirit that I truly have. I may have troubles, but they won’t take me down for too long. Life is a gift. It’s special and beautiful. And life is what we make of it. No matter what happens even when it seems like the world is crumbling around you, if you have a support system with even just one friend you know that everything will be okay.
Life will go on, the sun will rise on a new day, and the rainbow will come out after the storm. No matter what happens, it will be okay. That’s my view of life right now. It may be crap at times, but everything will be okay. Troubles will come, troubles will go, pain will come, pain will go, life will expand and life will grow, I just need to make sure I’m nurturing it and filling it with hope.
Even if you can’t do something as you once could, you have to keep trying. Be calm, be brave, don’t quit on life and never quit on yourself. The world needs you. I need you. You are the reason I’m up today and sharing my thoughts and experiences. Thank you for just being you and accepting me for who I am. I’m doing the same for you. Gentle hugs coming your way… xoxo
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So happy to see your post this morning!
Your very recent tummy troubles aka nausea and vomiting are a story I tell too often. New meds, weather changes that can cause migraines, stress…my list list could go on to write a book.
I began to think (NOT overthinking) that it’s a way that my brain fools me into not worrying or over stressing about little things, stuff, somewhat irrelevant crap (I sometimes find myself worrying about being worried lol) ) and my brain creates or uses tummy troubles or vomiting to divert my attention. Heaving, vomiting and occasional diarrhea while hovering over the toilet bowl….definitely not my favourite pastime lol BUT reading your post had me thinking…our brains work in mysterious ways…yes, there could other underlying causes but what if this is some weird & sick (no pun intended) way for MS to create a diversion to have stop stressing over everything?
Kind of makes sense, sort of, maybe….at least to to my MS brain this morning. Basically, don’t overthink your thoughts cause MS will put you in one heckuva tail spinner and maybe bring some old symptoms to the party. That why we don’t invite MS to the party.
Hopefully my rambling rant brought a smile to your face, Penelope.
Feel better soon.
Thanks… and it makes sense. Love what you said…. MS will put you in one heckuva tail spinner and maybe bring some old symptoms to the party. That why we don’t invite MS to the party. I’m smiling about it. Cause it could happen. 🙂
terrible to hear of your night. wishing you are feeling better today.
i like what you wrote to be brave… don’t give up on yourself.
choked me up. you inspire and help me so much, i’m forever grateful xo
i agree 100% with penelope.
what you wrote about not overthinking is sooo true(one of my biggest consumption of time–ugg).
sorry it gets you as well but good to know i’m not alone.
hugs.
Reading old posts thanks for the real things you write about and for writing them. My biggest fears are what you describe! Sometimes it can’t transfer to the toilet to pee…OMG could you imagine trying vomit,diarrhea!??!
I needed hear about life and not giving up my thoughts go there oftentimes….