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The multiple sclerosis storm you are in

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I went to bed with rain coming down and woke up to the same. It’s a rainy day out. I can hear the pitter patter of the drops as they hit the roof. It’s definitely going to be a wet kind of day, and I have a few appointments to go to so it looks like I will probably be getting wet in the process.

Yet even though it’s raining out, I know it’s not raining because of me. It’s not my fault the clouds are dumping water out and mucking up the day. There’s nothing I can do about it either. I can’t control the direction it sends me in or the troubles it leaves along the way.

It’s the same with living with multiple sclerosis. It sweeps into your life and attempts to take you out. You do all you can to tame it and make life manageable but it’s not easy. The destruction left behind can seem impossible to handle. You try to simply make it through your day. Life has become a moment by moment experience. Some moments are good, some bad and some are downright horrible. I want you to know that MS is not your fault. Just as with a storm, you do the best you can to stay safe and weather the storm.

I like to think of rain this way: “Rain makes me feel less alone. All rain is, is a cloud falling apart, and pouring its shattered pieces down on top of you. It makes me feel good to know I’m not the only thing that falls apart. It makes me feel better to know other things in nature can shatter.” (Lone Alaskan Gypsy)

Today you may feel like you are wading your way through a storm. Clouds are hanging over head and mucking up your day. It’s dark and rainy and there’s nothing you can do about it. You may be awaiting test results or facing a family crisis, you may be drowning in financial difficulties or surrounded by loneliness, your heart may be breaking or your mind may be filled with worries and there’s nothing you can do about it…except…

You can decide that no matter the rain or darkness, you are going to have a good day. It really is that simple. Storms come and storms go. No storm lasts forever. The storm you are in, it will end and the sun will come out again. Some storms are longer than others, but they all come to an end…every one.

You get to choose whether you will laugh or cry, sing or sigh, bend or break. You also get the amazing opportunity to dance in the rain and stomp through the puddles that get left behind. No matter what you are facing, you don’t have to go through it alone. Share your umbrella with someone else.

I can guarantee you that if you take a moment to peak out from under your umbrella, you will see someone else walking in the same direction you are without an umbrella. Lift yours up a little bit higher and offer to hold it for them too. Two walking together in the rain is better than one. You could even turn it into a party and see if more people could fit. It won’t make the storm pass quicker, but it will make the time more enjoyable as you support one another.

If you just so happen to be one of the umbrella-less people right now, you don’t have to keep getting poured on. Look up. You will see umbrellas everywhere that are willing to share. Reach out and ask for help. Sometimes that can be the hardest thing in the world to do, but in the end it keeps you from getting soaked. Don’t be ashamed or embarrassed. It really is okay to ask for help. We all need each other.

Then after the storm has come and gone, get out there a jump in the puddles.

I can’t wish MS away

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I feel like I was run over by a Mack truck last night. I’m exhausted, in pain and have become frustrated at dealing with multiple sclerosis every second of every day. I’m not really surprised though. I have sort of prepared myself for the unexpected. It is what it is… is what I tell myself all the time.

I can’t wish MS away or even think positively enough for it to disappear. Some people have said dealing with it is just mind over MS, haha. I doubt they have had any issues with MS to overcome or even MS itself. It frustrates me when people spout out how to deal with a problem that they’ve never had. Drive-by Antagonists need to get a new hobby.

One thing MS has done is taught me that I’m tougher than I thought possible. When something goes wrong, which it will, I tend to bounce back…not fall apart. I celebrate the small victories that I have.

Yesterday I had the energy to collapse several boxes that my new recliner came in. I used a box cutter (carefully) to dissect the boxes so they would be able to be picked up by the local garbage collection service. I think in doing so my body is paying me back because I overdid things a bit. I’m terrible at not listening to my body and always regret it later.

So far this morning I have been able to wash my face and make a cup of coffee. That’s a great start. I am not planning much for the day so I have time to recover. I know that sounds silly. Collapsing boxes is no big deal some would say. But my body says differently.

I’m not going to sit in shame for resting. I’m going to watch something fun on TV and rest in my new chair. It has been the greatest investment I’ve made in a long time. I like how it will stand me up almost entirely and allow me to easily transfer to my powerchair.

I’ve got a new project I want to start in my yard but I will wait for another time. I will just plan it out so when the time comes I will have everything I need to get it done. I just need to take my own advice and listen to my body when it’s talking. It really knows what it’s talking about.

A message to the disabled with MS

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What I have to say is by no means groundbreaking but as someone who lives with sight loss, bladder disfunction, the inability to walk, and unpredictable tremors, I have a good idea of what a life with a disability can bring. There are certain things that I could have benefited from hearing myself in order to feel less alone.

Having a disability can introduce a unique set of challenges that you have to go through and some you never even imagined you would be dealing with. Whether you’re living with a disability yourself or if you know of someone living with a disability, perhaps reading on their behalf, whoever you are, I hope you can benefit in some way from what I have to say.

1. YOU ARE NOT A BURDEN

There have been many occasions when I felt like a burden. I would feel like I was a pain when I asked someone to help me out. At times I thought my impairments were an inconvenience for others, but looking back now, I know they are not and I want others to know that as well. There are many ways of adapting these days and there are so many people out there who are willing to help. You will never be a burden.

2. IT’S OK TO FEEL LIKE GIVING UP

Having a disability can leave some people feeling anxious, broken, lonely, isolated and scared. I say this because I’ve felt all of them for myself and they have made me feel like giving up. Having a disability can be a long and tough journey which requires a lot of adapting and I know of so many people connected to disabilities in some way who have felt like giving up.

I want you to know that feeling like this is ok. It’s normal, but if it gets too much, it’s important to seek help. Once I started to realize that the positives were coming closer to my reach, I learned how powerful they can be – there’s always a glimpse of positivity even when you least expect it.

3. DON’T BE AFRAID TO ASK FOR HELP

Asking for help is one of the best things you can do, if only my stubborn self realized the benefits of it sooner. I had a great lack of confidence which left me struggling with some thing because I didn’t want to ask for help.

Please don’t struggle. Make the most of the help that is offered to you and if you’re finding something difficult or tricky, a simple question asking for help can make things so much easier. I still need to remind myself of this very thing sometimes.

4. IT’S NORMAL TO FEEL CONFUSED

Living with a MS can be incredibly overwhelming at times. You’re introduced to an abundance of tools, mobility aids and equipment that people think might help and it can all seem very confusing. After I was diagnosed, everything seemed confusing. The future seemed unclear and it was a lot for me to come to terms with it.

But I want you to know that if you are also feeling confused about your disability and what it means for you and your life, it’s a completely normal feeling and, in time, that confusion will start to fade as you start to learn what you need, what help is the most necessary for you and how you can navigate the world with a disability in the most accessible way.

5. A MOBILITY AID CAN BE YOUR KEY TO INDEPENDENCE

Oh, how I used to hate my cane – the thought of going out in public with it used to make me feel incredibly anxious. But once I picked my cane up I slowly started to realize that it could be my key to the independence that I so desperately wanted and needed. Using a walker did the same thing along with a wheelchair.

It can be scary, it can seem daunting, yes sometimes incredibly daunting but if it gives you the independence you want or need. Doesn’t that outweigh all those other feelings? Embracing your mobility aid, whatever it might be, can be one of the most important steps in the road to acceptance and independence.

So, I might still have a few stares and glares but do they matter in the grand scheme of things? I’m out there on my own, being the independent person I want to be and you can be too. If you’re happy and confident when using your mobility aid then no one else’s opinion or judgement matters.

6. YOU CAN GET THROUGH THE DIFFICULT TIMES

You might feel defeated at times, you might feel like you’re swimming against the tide but you can champion and overcome the challenges that come your way. A disability seems to open the door to a whole new set of challenges, as if you don’t have enough to contend with already, right? But those challenges are there to be overcome and you are determined and strong enough to do just that.

Real life isn’t Hollywood. I will always have my bad days and so will you but that doesn’t mean you can’t get through them. You can come out stronger on the other side.

7. FIND YOUR UNIQUE WAY OF EXPRESSING YOURSELF

I’ve found my passion since starting Positive Living with MS, writing and blogging is my unique way of expressing myself and how I feel, but yours might be through art, music, crafts, or even building models or gardening.

Discovering that passion can potentially be invaluable, it gives you the opportunity to express who you really are and show that to others. It can be your lifeline when you’re finding things difficult. It can be your escape.

8. YOU CAN ACHIEVE AMAZING THINGS

Your disability shouldn’t be a barrier to achieving your goals. There is always an alternative way to getting where you want to be in life. If one road leads to a dead end, find another one and follow it until you reach where you want to be. People living with disabilities have dreams, hopes, goals and aspirations just like everyone else and you can achieve amazing things, never let anyone tell you otherwise.

9. DO WHATEVER IT IS YOU WANT TO DO

It’s your time to go out there and have fun. There are people out there who think that a life with a disability is a completely negative one, that having fun or achieving your goals doesn’t seem to tie in to a life with MS but it’s definitely not the case.

Disabilities can be restricting in some aspects but it doesn’t mean that you can’t go out there and have a good time. Do whatever it is that makes you happy.

Yes, there are people who won’t understand, there are people who will judge, who will make snide remarks and who will make incessant attempts to get you down but there are also people out there who will pick you back up again, who will support you, people who will have your back no matter what. It’s those people you need to focus your energy on.

10. YOU ARE NOT ALONE

This is one of the things I needed to hear the most a few years ago and perhaps one of the most important messages we need to be told. Disabilities can be isolating, especially for newly diagnosed people who are trying to come to grips with their diagnosis, the adaptions that need to be made and all the terminology that seems to come from every direction.

It can feel like you’re the only one experiencing what you’re going through. It can feel like no one around you understands the situation you’re in and how your disability is affecting you.

You might feel angry, frustrated, resentful, isolated, lonely, like you’re being left behind and maybe all sorts of other emotions. Please remember that even though it might feel like a lonely place right now, there are so many people out there who are in the same boat as you, who might be feeling exactly the same as you are right now, how you have felt in the past or how you might feel in the future.

The feeling of being ‘alone’ is more common than you think but it’s an emotion felt by thousands of other people and it’s what a lot of us need to remember. You are not alone.

Living with a disability can prove difficult no matter what your age. If you’re finding it difficult, I want you to know that although it can feel like life is throwing all sorts of hurdles your way, they can be hard to jump over but not impossible.

Although it can be difficult, a life with a disability can also be rewarding, it gives you a different perspective, it can let you see the world in a different way to others and help you to appreciate the little things in life.

Believe in your abilities, focus on what you can do rather than what you can’t, surround yourself with the right people, grab hold of the positives, express yourself in whatever way you wish and never let anyone tell you what you can’t do or achieve. You are capable of so much more than you realize. Take it from someone who knows.

Change your struggles into something positive

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Multiple sclerosis just keeps happening to me and no amount of meds, sleep, CBD oil, meditation, chocolate or coffee seems to be able to stop it. I’ve even tried non-GMO, user friendly, vegan ones but no help. Don’t even get me started on using all the proven wives-tale wonders, conspiracy theory miracles and Dr. I-got-the-cure know it alls out there.

How can MS, something as simple as 2 letters, be so difficult? That’s beyond me. After all it’s just 2 letters in the alphabet. It’s not a sentence. But lately I would disagree. I’ve been put in solitary confinement, experienced sleep deprivation, dealt with torture by every ill acting nerve in my body and was even handed a restrictive diet of soft-foods-only due to a lack of muscle control. Ugh, what gives?!

That’s the crazy thing about MS. Whichever nerve it attacks is the cause of the problems for the body. If it attacks the legs… those are the ones hindered. If it attacks the eyes… yep, they have difficulties. If it attacks the bladder… troubles abound. Each person dealing with MS is different because with the trillions of nerves in the body it’s a crapshoot as to which one gets hit. Every day is a risky and unpredictable nerve venture inside the body.

True story, yesterday I wanted something cold to drink because it’s been getting hot here. I decided to make a smoothy because I had all the ingredients needed. Blending everything up makes it easier for my jaw muscles. For me, eating something as soft as a banana can actually be difficult.

I put everything in my blender to smash away, but once it made it look perfectly frapped I couldn’t twist the lid off. My hands were too weak. Weaker than my jaw was. It was so depressing that for a moment I leaned over the counter and a few tears fell. Why me? Ugh!

Then I took a deep breath, grabbed ahold of the lid and twisted for the upteenth time. Amazingly enough it came off. Thank goodness. I didn’t want a perfectly blended smoothy go bad.

I poured it into a glass, got comfortable in my chair and enjoyed a tasty drink. My jaw was really thankful everything was crushed up. It hit the spot…even with a few tears and several worn out muscles.

When I’m having a really bad day I remind myself that life is all in the choosing. Every day we are faced with decision. We may not be able to choose the struggle we are dealt, but we do get to choose how we will respond to it. BTW, tears are allowed.

In life, things happen around us and things happen to us, but how you choose to react to what’s going on is what really matters. Life is all about modifying, readjusting, and adapting in the struggle. Change your struggles into something positive. I know you can.

Positive affirmations that will change your life

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There’s so much evil happening in the world today that you don’t know who to trust due to the amount of disinformation taking place everywhere you turn. Sadly the spreaders of disinfo are determined to purposefully confuse, agitate and divide people. Don’t let their words and actions negatively impact you.

Whether you’re dealing with stress, need a confidence boost, or simply want to give yourself a pep talk, positive affirmations are a powerful tool for rewiring your thoughts and shifting the chaos in your day. They are phrases that are meant to uplift and inspire you to be your best. Repeating self-selected phrases can do wonders for your day. I find if I read through some of my favorite ones, my day gets better. It doesn’t change my troubles, but it changes me and what I’m focusing on.

One of the beautiful things about affirmations is that they are super easy to work with and you can choose the ones that speak to you—whether you found them on a list or you made them up yourself. It’s important to look for affirmations that really resonate with you and the person you want to be. I find writing them on post-it notes and placing them around the house for me to see helps. I have some in my bathroom on the mirror, some on the refrigerator and some even in my van on the steering wheel.

Repeating positive affirmations, mantras, and meditations are all great ways to prime the brain to make a change. The point of affirmations isn’t to magically cast a spell on your life but rather to start shifting you into a more positive mindset so you’re better able to line up your thought to help clear the chaos around you.

It can be easy to get caught up in negative thought loops, but with a few personalized and empowering affirmations paired with some honest self-reflection, you can slowly but surely start to unlearn and reshape those patterns.

Some Positive Affirmations:

  1. I release all fear that tried to tell me I should be somewhere different.
  2. I need only focus on right here, right now.
  3. I can get through difficulties.
  4. I’m doing my best.
  5. I am enough.
  6. I offer myself rest and relaxation.
  7. I am deserving of my own love and care.
  8. I care for myself because I love myself.
  9. My self-care is a priority.
  10. I treat myself as I would a dear friend.
  11. I am so grateful to be alive.
  12. I’m going to have a great day.
  13. Today and every day I am blessed.
  14. No challenge is too great for me.
  15. I wake each morning with a smile.
  16. I am strong.
  17. I am capable of overcoming anything.
  18. I am resilient.
  19. I can get through hardship.
  20. I am a wonderful person.
  21. I love who I am.
  22. I am courageous.
  23. I learn and grow through difficulty.
  24. I always pick myself back up.
  25. I will press on and go forward.
  26. I release what no longer serves me.
  27. I am proud of myself.
  28. I am living with purpose.
  29. Every day is a gift.
  30. Every day I embody the best version of myself.

Multiple sclerosis is your reality

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I know your heart is heavy. Right now you are on the verge of tears…tears that have been collecting deep in the spaces of your heart and flooding over into your mind. You have met reality face to face and you don’t like it one bit. Multiple sclerosis is your reality. It’s real and you feel it deep. You are finding yourself overwhelmed and challenged in every area of life, and you feel the weight of simply getting through today to be daunting. Laundry has piled up and errands are on hold as you sit alone feeling like you’re about to break.

You don’t feel very brave right now. Sure, when you go out the door with a smile plastered across your face, you are brave. But that’s a mask you wear out in public to cover the pain. Here you sit, alone, and the mask comes off. Your thoughts are running wild and the tears begin to fall.

Where’s your brave when you feel numb to the core? Where’s your brave when all you see is clouds before you and not one ray of sunlight can be found? Where’s your brave when you run into walls, trip on invisible obstacles, can’t walk across the room, choke on air, your body trembles, and you drop everything you try to hold? Where’s your brave when you feel defeated? Where’s your brave then?

I want you to know that you are brave even when you can’t feel it. There truly is strength in you. A strength so amazing that even you don’t know it’s there. You’ve held on this long…that is brave. I know it’s terrifying. I know it’s not easy. You don’t see it, but I sure do. You are a brave multiple sclerosis survivor in this fight.

Rise up and be confident in who you are. Don’t give up just because the road is hard. It takes a strong person to wake up in the morning and face a new day surrounded by challenges, pain and uncertainty…and you are doing it.

Discouragement will happen, exhaustion and stress will find you, but don’t allow your heart to grow weary too. It’s okay to let the tears flow. Sometimes that’s all you need to do to lighten the load. Let it go and find your brave today, because you are brave! I can see it.

An MS life isn’t so simple

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Most people don’t have to think about the things they are doing in life like answering the door when an unexpected visitor arrives until something like multiple sclerosis comes along and messes with our ability to do those things. Sure, we have to juggle things around in order to fit the sudden changes into our day and most of the time those shifts are not so simple to make. It’s that way with just about everything I do.

I’ve never been a big fan of running errands. Who would have thought the mundane chores of grocery shopping, going to the bank or the post office, and even picking up lunch could be so daunting. For me, in order to run errands, the timing has to be planned perfectly to ensure I have the energy for the remainder of my day. Not planning can end in disaster…meaning, can end in me vegging on the couch for hours just to regain enough strength to help me cope with the rest of my day. Some errands can set me back days…not just hours.

I have to think about doing things more than people should. For example, take the act of walking. That may seem like a strange thing to have to think about, but when I stand up to try and walk, I have to make sure I have the proper supports around me to keep from falling down. Then I have to concentrate on each step, movement, leg shift and foot lift. It takes GREAT effort and tremendous thought to do something as simple as walking and sometimes I don’t have the strength to do it. My muscles turn to jelly and won’t allow it.

If I need something in the kitchen, I can’t just jump up and get it. If I drop something on the floor, many times that item will remain where it landed until I have the strength to reach down and pick it up. By the way, that can mean it will remain on the floor for days. If someone comes to the front door, it takes so much energy to transfer to my wheelchair and make my way to the door only to find out it’s a solicitor wanting me to try their restaurant take-out service, that’s why most of the time I just don’t answer it.

When MS comes into our lives, the things most people take for granted become something we are grateful to still be able to do. We know that one day everything will change, the unexpected will happen, life will shift and simple will no longer be simple. No amount of planning prepares someone mentally for those kinds of changes.

If you find yourself frustrated because you need to fill up your gas tank on your way to work today or because you need to pick up some cheese for tomorrow’s spaghetti dinner, stop and remind yourself that you are still able to do those things…and be grateful for the little things no matter the inconvenience.

Don’t take anything you are still able to do for granted. Those things may take extra time to work through or you may have to get creative in the way you do them, but you will have accomplished something greater than great when you do complete it. You will have done something some people are no longer able to do.

Don’t give up, don’t give in and keep going while you can. That’s what makes you an MS Warrior. Plan B, C, D, and sometimes even Z, ZZ, and ZZZ have become a part of my everyday life and I’m okay with that. I will keep trying, keep going, and shift with the changes until I no longer can.

Life won’t be easy with MS but it’s worth it

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When you get diagnosed with multiple sclerosis it seems like the world has come to an ended. For me it was something I knew nothing about. I had gone to the hospital because I couldn’t feel a good portion of my face, my vision was blurred and my right leg was going numb. I had an MRI and a spot was found on my brain that concerned the neurologist but he couldn’t determine what it was. He said I needed to be checked out in a few months to find out if I had a tumor or what was happening.

At that time I was in the middle of moving to Florida so I was hoping it was something that would just go away and my move would be uneventful. When I got to Florida it was 3 days later and I had lost vision in my left eye, was in a constant state of vertigo, the numbness of my right left was significant and had migrated to my right arm, was in the beginning stages of an MS hug and my world was coming to an end for sure.

I called a neurologist as soon as I arrived in Florida and amazingly they had an opening for me to come in. A second set of MRIs were done along with a spinal tap and a few days later the neurologist had the results. He sat down with me and said, the MRI shows over 6 spots in the brain and over 10 in the spine. I’m sorry to tell you but, you have multiple sclerosis.

I wasn’t given any information from the neurologist about what MS is, what can be done about it, NOTHING other than he said to me, “You will probably have a benign case.” What? Then he said, we will start you on Rebif and see how things go as we try to slow the progression down. That was that.

I was left on my own to figure things out and because I went to the doctor by myself I didn’t know what to ask or what to do. It was such a horrible feeling to do everything by myself. I left in a whirlwind and numb to the core.

Afterwards I dedicated myself to digging for answers and empowered myself through asking tons of questions even the hard hitting questions. After going to support groups and leaving feeling worse than when I arrived, I decided to reach out to others online with encouragement and my own odd sense of sarcastic humor rather than doctor speak and AA meeting type get togethers. I figured if I’m feeling lost and out of place then others may be too and we all just need to know that we aren’t alone. That was 10 years ago and although MS was well known, it wasn’t known enough by the public or even the doctors that are helping people with MS to cope.

It’s true that life won’t be easy afterwards. I prayed a lot and cried a lot but I made it through with a strength I never knew I had. Isn’t that weird how that happens? You don’t know you have something until you need it… and then, there it is.

You can get through anything life throws at you. I know you can. When everything crumbles down it give you a chance to build something spectacular out of the ashes. I guess the whole world is made up of things coming together and things falling apart. You never know what you may have. You may have beauty in the midst of your ashes.

Don’t lock yourself up distancing yourself from others. It seems like that would be the easy way to do things… to just shut yourself up and pull away. That’s our natural defense mechanism as humans. We build walls to protect our heart, but in the end, we find that the very walls we build are actually keeping away the people we need most.

Take a sledge hammer to that wall, start chiseling away at the concrete even if it will only remove one brick. Keep chiseling one brick at a time. That’s progress in the making.

Reach outside of yourself and do something for others. I find that when I am helping someone else in need, I forget about my own needs. It almost makes my struggle seem not so big. So, my challenge to you is to step out and touch someone. Do something to give back to others. Find a place where you can volunteer – a cause or an organization you believe in – and give all that you can of yourself, your talents, your time.

Sometimes we just need to step out of our own pain to realize that everyone has pain, and some are struggling even more than you are. A change in perspective can be the very thing that begins crumbling the walls and opening your life for a new found hope for tomorrow.

Make the best of life when it throws lemons at you

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It’s really nice when my couch lets me out of the house. I try to spend time outside on nice days. Not a lot of time, especially if it’s hot out, but right now it’s still cool in the mornings so that’s always a pleasant time for me. Yesterday, I was able to get out and enjoy a bit of sunshine which was a nice welcomed treat for me.

As I was sitting on my back patio, I noticed lots of new flowers starting to bloom. There was a sweet smell of honeysuckle in the air and the birds were singing their songs from high up in the trees. Everything seemed alive. There was no traffic, no busy people, no distractions, just a calm and peaceful morning for me to enjoy.

I noticed one flower in particular that looked somewhat out of place tucked away in the corner of the yard, but amazingly beautiful with a brilliant mixture of red and orange colors. Maybe it was the way the morning breeze was blowing against the flower’s pedals or maybe it was just my imagination, but I am almost sure that I saw that flower stand taller as I watched it. It seemed to square its shoulders back and hold its head high as if to say, “Good morning, I’m glad you’re here!”

The thing that made this flower’s beauty stand out more than anything else in the yard was the fact that it was growing right in the middle of a compost pile…forgotten and alone…sitting in a pile of broken down waste and scraps.

Have you ever heard the saying “bloom where you’re planted?” Well, this flower was doing just that. It could have decided that life was simply too hard and given up on ever becoming anything of use, it could have decided to bury itself even deeper into the compost pile and hidden itself away forever, it could have decided to keep its beauty from ever being seen by me or anyone else, but this flower was determined to shine…and shine it did.

That flower decided to push its way through all the crap it was given and become a thing of beauty regardless of where it was stuck in life. No one but me, a few birds that were fluttering about in the trees nearby, and maybe a worm or two saw its beauty, but if only for us, it fulfilled its purpose! That one flower gave me a smile. It made a difference.

You may feel like that flower today, like you’re stuck in a stinky, smelly, horrific pile of crap, yet no matter how ugly or smelly things may be in your life, all that junk has an incredible way of producing amazing things of beauty. It may look like garbage to you, but to me, I see something incredible. I see a beautiful you in the making. I see a strength rising up that says just watch me shine…I’m going to make it.

Don’t lose hope. There is still a lot of good to come from your life. You are very much needed. You are not a mess. Because of you, someone’s day will be brighter. They will see you making it even though you’re in the middle of an impossibility and be encouraged by your strength. It’s time to square your shoulders back and hold your head up high. Don’t underestimate your value. Make the best of life when it throws lemons at you and show the world just how amazing you really are.

Words from my heart

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Some people live their lives in the Land of Clichés and Memes. What are they you ask? Well, a cliché is a phrase or opinion that is overused and betrays a lack of original thought and a meme (rhymes with team) is a humorous or thought provoking image, video, piece of text, etc. that is copied (often with slight variations) and spread rapidly by Internet users.

One thing to note…technically all clichés are memes but not all memes are clichés.

I have noticed a trend in people using phrases when talking about multiple sclerosis. Words that once were amazing, but have become so common that they no longer provide the strength they originally carried. Things like:

It could be worse.
Time heals all wounds.
Everything happens for a reason.

Personally, when I’m feeling bad and having a terrible time with MS, I’m not comforted with statements like: I have MS but MS doesn’t have me. That is one phrase that has become so overused that I don’t even listen to the person sharing it. It’s not comforting to me. It was cute the first time I heard it, but now that it has been so overused and worn out, it gives no benefit to my life.

The reality is…sometimes, MS does have me. Sometimes, I have really crappy days. Don’t get me wrong, I totally believe in staying on the positive side of things and looking for the good in any tragic situation, but there are times when I need space to think and grieve, and to decide for myself how I want to move forward. I don’t need words carelessly tossed out as a solution by someone who’s not even listening to the words they are throwing out.

Seriously, if you’ve ever shared a cliché or meme in response to someone dealing with a relapse or sitting in the hospital awaiting test results because you want to bring comfort to them, I urge you to never do it again. Why? Because in a moment of tears, they need time to process the chaos and would get more benefit out of a hug than a worn out set of stale words.

Why not just use your own words? The best thing anyone could say when times are at their worst are words from the heart. And for many, saying nothing at all, simply being there is all a person needs. Standing with them in the pain and holding them up when they have no more strength left to stand on their own… that does more than worn out words.

Instead of quoting from something you’ve heard over and over again, thoughtfully put together your own words filled with care, understanding, sincerity, and lots and lots of love. That’s what brings comfort. That’s what helps bring smiles to a face covered in tears. Well, that and maybe a joke or two to break the moment with a laugh…and some chocolate. Chocolate always helps.