When you gotta pee

Sometimes I laugh at myself, like yesterday when I accidentally dropped freshly ground coffee all over me and the kitchen floor. Laughing about it was so much better than crying. Besides, tears mixed with coffee grounds is therapeutic, at least it seemed to be for me as I laughed vacuuming it up. All I kept thinking was spilled ground coffee sure do suck! haha

I have accidents all the time. I trip, drop things, fall, misplace items, forget appointments, and have lots and lots of mishaps. Accidents seem to be synonymous with multiple sclerosis. Some of us have more than others, but they seem to just be a part our life now.

Since surgery at the beginning of the year to remove my bladder, a stoma was created from a section of my small intestines to allow my urine to be managed. I wear a pouching system that is attached to the stoma around my belly area. Even though I can’t pee in my pants like before, I still have accidents. Not the oops, I peed in my pants kind, more of the oops, the pouch adhesive has loosened causing it to leak unexpectedly all over me.

I would much rather have a leaking pouch that I can tame by holding my hand or a cloth over it until I can remove it and replace it with a new pouch than face a flood because I wet my pants. I have a bit more control over a leaking pouch than I ever had over my bladder. When I had to go, I had to go. I had no control over the muscles that made my bladder function.

I’ve gotten really good at changing my urine pouch and can have a new one attached to my stoma in about 10 minutes. For me, I change the pouch system about once every 4 to 5 days. It took time for me to get used to changing it and a lot of practice trying out different samples sent to me from the companies that make pouches, but I finally found the ones that seem to work the best for me.

One good thing about my life now is that I don’t have to rush to the bathroom every couple of hours due to a faulty bladder. Now I just routinely empty my pouch as it fills up. No more accidents in the middle of the store when I’m out and about and no more sleepless nights because of multiple bathroom trips to go pee. I normally attach a night bag to my pouch so I don’t have to empty it while I’m sleeping.

Accidents are going to happen no matter what I do. Let’s see if I can make it through the day today without one, but if I do have one I will make sure to find some fun and joy in the process. I hope you are able to do the same thing. Don’t take life too seriously.

Remember that you weren’t given an instruction manual along with multiple sclerosis. You can only do the best you can with the information you have at the time. So, don’t be so hard on yourself. You’re a work in progress.