Archive for month: October, 2023

I started a new home improvement project. My garage door needs new weatherstripping across the top and sides of the door. I researched the products I need and decided the cost is actually fairly low if I do it myself so I bought all the wood and screws needed.

Yesterday I started the first step in replacing the old weatherstripping. I bought four 1×3 boards that needed to be cut down to 1×2’s. I discovered in order to have a board exactly 1×2 I would have to cut them down myself. I laid the boards out in my backyard so I could use my circular saw to cut them down. I don’t have a fancy setup to hold the boards steady while I cut.

The bad thing is that my legs have problems maintaining my balance even while sitting. I set up a folding chair for me to sit in while I cut the boards, but I had trouble keeping the cut straight while I was working to balance myself. While I used the saw my legs kept slipping and I came close multiple times to falling over. My leg muscles are just very, very weak.

It was such a struggle. I was able to cut the 8 foot long boards about 12 inches at a time. I had to keep shifting the board down to keep on cutting the full length of the board. It took me so much longer than planned. After a pile of sawdust formed I had finished cutting them down. I felt so proud of myself. Next week I’m going to paint them white and a friend is going to come over to help me hang them around the garage door.

So far I feel so accomplished. I know there’s still a lot to do, but for me cutting the boards was the hardest part. I still have to pull the old boards off and sand the old wood before I can attached the new wood in the opening.

I think I make things hard for myself but I feel so good knowing that I am able to accomplish something myself. That’s the stubborn part of me. I have saved over $300 that I don’t have because I’m doing it myself. Multiple sclerosis has made it difficult, but not impossible. It’s almost like I have a challenge set before me and I have to prove to myself that I’m still capable. If I can’t do it, I will throw my hands up and surrender but I want to at least try before I give up.

Giving up like that does happen but so far I have been able to push through many challenges that MS has brought along. Falling over is not something I want to happen. It seems like such a small thing but it’s actually quite big. The time it takes for me to complete the project will take longer than it would have if I was stronger, but even the time delay is not going to hold me back.

Some of the most difficult things for me is doing anything that requires a steady hand. I can guarantee you that in your trying you are going to feel like a failure at some point…maybe even more than once or twice. But choose to be like Thomas Edison at those times. During his work on the lightbulb, he said “I have not failed 10,000 times. I have not failed once. I have succeeded in proving that those 10,000 ways will not work. When I have eliminated the ways that will not work, I will find the way that will work.”

You will find a way that works too! Whether you find a better way to improve your life or a new way to do something that others tell you (or even you tell yourself) can’t be done, keep trying. Don’t give up on living. Don’t give up trying. Don’t give up no matter how impossible or difficult things may get. Just don’t give up. You will find a way that works for you.