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MS is a disease of change

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Have you ever needed to talk to someone yet you were scared stiff to do it because deep down you knew it was not going to go well? To prepare yourself, you planned out what you were going to say. You chose your words wisely and sounded so eloquent in your head. You even planned out their response. Everything seemed perfect.

When the time came, you sat down with them only to realize that things weren’t going as planned. They didn’t follow the script you laid out in your head. We’ve all had those moments. In most cases we can look back at those times and smile because, in the end, things worked out just not the way we thought they would.

Life has a way of doing that. It doesn’t go as planned no matter how hard we try to force it to. And sometimes we try really hard.

Before multiple sclerosis, I had my life all planned out. My career was set. My goals were laid out. I was going places and doing things. Then MS came along and changed everything around.

I think about it kind of like this…

There’s a comfort knowing that I can park my car in a certain spot every day; that if I open the top drawer in my bathroom cabinet I will find the toothpaste neatly tucked away; that when I go to the grocery store the tomatoes are to the right and the napkins are to the left.

But what would happen if I pulled into my driveway and couldn’t get into the garage because the garage door wouldn’t open; or I opened the drawer in the bathroom cabinet and the toothpaste exploded splattering all over my new dress; or if the grocery store decided to move everything around and change the entire floor plan?

What would happen? Frustrations would be high and schedules would get delayed. Now if those things were to happen all at once and then change every single day into the future, well that’s a life with MS and not something you ever get used to.

MS is a disease of change and that much unexpected change can be hard.

When things don’t happen the way you think they should, don’t let that ruin your day. When change is the only thing constant in your life, don’t allow frustration to rule the day.

MS has this way of switching things up on you without warning. Because of that, it’s important to sort through everything going on and choose to focus on the things that really matter in life.

Focus on family, friends, your faith, things that give you peace and happiness, and leave behind everything else that really, in the long run, doesn’t matter. Live in the moment. This way, when change comes (because we all know it will), you will be able to move right through it and keep going.

Sometimes a little change is all you need

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I decided to color my hair after years of allowing it to go grey. The main reason was because living with grey hair started making me feel old. I needed a pick me up moment and oddly enough coloring my hair did the job.

I’m back to being a redhead. The change very likely activated the ‘happy’ chemicals in my brain, like serotonin and dopamine, and accounts for the lift in my spirits. It’s like how a change in scenery is recommended for depressed people. My hairdo change has helped to lift my spirits. Now when I look in the mirror I feel more confident and happy.

I’m not sure if my hair will stay red forever, but right now, it’s given me a powerful push in the right direction toward feeling like the best version of myself. For now, I’m going to bask in my changed hair color and continue to find new ways to keep these feelings up even if I let my natural color grow back.

I’ve purchased a couple of boxes of hair dye to use every 4 months or so to upkeep the red color. It’s amazing how something like this can make such a difference. I wasn’t going to let multiple sclerosis define my mental well-being. At least I have some control over something myself.

I have to say I was in a better mood when I went to the store yesterday and even spent more time talking to the clerk and customers. Nothing big, but I know I was smiling more. That’s always a plus.

Don’t blame yourself for the bad days, and don’t despair when they come. Pay attention to your body’s cues, go easy on yourself, and know that, at the very least, making a small change here or there can help lift your mood for the better.

I don’t take good picture, but here you go… no makeup and all.