Don't treat me like I'm different

My body is broken and sometimes my mind is too. My advice is don’t give up on life because everything has changed. If you’ve had a bad experience with a bad doctor, you didn’t cause that. There’s absolutely no shame in trying to find a new doctor who you know specializes in working with multiple sclerosis. That’s actually the reason why I was able to get my diagnosis. I went to a neurologist that friends had recommended.

I asked them, “hey, do you know a doctor in this area who specializes in MS?” I found that doctor and saw that they took my insurance. I actually ended up crying when the doctor said, “Oh no, I don’t need to do a ton of extra tests on you. I know exactly what you are dealing with based on your past tests and MRIs. Let’s try a different approach and see if it helps you.”

That day, I was having a hard time standing up and wound up hanging onto walls just to get to my first appointment. The doctor could see how hard it was for me. It was amazing to find a doctor that actually cared about me and what I was dealing with. Sad to say many people don’t find one.

Even though MS is not terminal, it’s a disease that will worsen over time. Before you judge me for my choices, remember that I have fought this battle alone. If you haven’t experienced this for yourself you’ll never know what decisions you would have made and until you’ve walked in my shoes or seen how far I’ve come on this broken path, know that I’ve done the best I can with what I have.

Don’t treat me like I’m different, that’s just not fair to do. I’m still ME and I have feelings too. Think before you speak, listen before you act. I’m not a statistic. I’m not a number or a diagnosis. I’m a person with different abilities taking on a different world. I prove everyday that I’m a miracle and will never give up.

I’m Raising $500 for the annual website costs of Positive Living With MS. Any amount would be a tremendous blessing and give this blog further reach to people living with multiple sclerosis. Caregivers, family members and fellow MSers have always enjoyed reading my blog. Many say that they would miss me terribly if I would ever go away. That I am a light of hope and encouragement that helps get them through their day. I was diagnosed with PPMS myself in 2013. Most of my writing is about my own experiences. I try to mix in humor as well as the reality of what life is like living with MS.