Don’t ever apologize because you are hurting
Have you ever expressed a concern or talked with someone about a new multiple sclerosis symptom you are experiencing without a “woe is me” attitude and their response was just get over it? I’ve always thought that to be a strange response. Get over what exactly? Get over the pain? Get over the fear? Get over a chronic illness? What exactly am I to be getting over?
How do you get over something that you live with on a daily and minute-by-minute basis? “Oh, today I’m going to ignore the fact that my legs don’t work, get over it and walk across the room.” Really? And that’s supposed to make multiple sclerosis go away…ignoring it and just getting over it? Yeah… No, that doesn’t work.
Don’t ever apologize because you are hurting or needing help. It’s like being sorry for being real. Don’t allow someone’s response to you cause feelings of guilt just because you are having a challenging day. You are the one living with MS and you have the right to feel what you feel. Most people with MS hide their struggles for that very reason. They don’t want to be thought of as a burden because they know their pain is ongoing and invisible to the onlooker.
Unfortunately, there are people who are unequipped, ill-equipped and wrongly equipped to be helpful to a person living with a chronic illness. If I had a broken arm, I would have people pouring out their concern and desire to help me open doors and carry a pile of books, but that’s because a broken arm is temporary and the need is visible. Once the bone mends and the cast is removed, the need for help is no longer there. Life goes on as it always was and no one has to open doors or carry books for you any more.
But unlike a broken arm, a chronic illness is ongoing. It doesn’t simply go away as time passes. That’s why it doesn’t make sense to expect someone who is going through pain, weakness or any other MS struggle to simply “get over it” as if it’s a decision that can be made.
Most of the time people who give that kind of advice, if you want to call it advice, are at a point of frustration within themselves because they are being inconvenienced. They actually say what they say because in reality they want you to be over it so they can be spared having to deal with your challenges. Most people want to help others out, but they want you to feel better thus sparing them the inconvenience of having to adjust their own lives to accommodate the unexpected. They are thinking of themselves.
I promise you that no matter how hard life is right now, you are not “too much” or someone that is weighing other people down. As I’ve said many times before, remember that you are not a burden, you HAVE a burden which by definition is something too heavy to carry alone. Don’t be afraid to ask for help. The ones who are meant to stick around will ask how they can help lift that burden whenever they can. Let the others go.
Above all, remember that you are loved. I know it doesn’t feel like that right now, but it’s true. An MS life can be remarkably hard. We’re not invincible. What one person can handle can be too much for someone else. It’s not about how strong or weak you are, you’re just a person trying to make your way through the craziness of an MS life like many others. Give yourself some credit for pushing on despite how intense things are right now. You got this!
1. Simplify your life.